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Final_frontier
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- Feb 23, 2019
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Even if I could tolerate the pain, the void/nothingsness scares me shitless. I'm going to miss mom and dad :(
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What kind of god would punish someone in hell for ever, someone who's already been punished by life. That's bullshit. Can't be true. I'm talking about non existence. It's just as scary as hell.I had this samw conversation with someone and it really just boils down to fear of that we don't know. Being raised Catholic( atheist now) it's been ingrained to fear hell, and if its real then I'm definitely going to hell.
But I've made some peace with that because life on the street is much worse.
i do find it interesting that people believe in heaven/hell/ect however will say "laid to rest" its not too restful if theyre actually awake so they kind of contradict themselves. the body might be laid to rest but 'they' arent.I had this samw conversation with someone and it really just boils down to fear of that we don't know. Being raised Catholic( atheist now) it's been ingrained to fear hell, and if its real then I'm definitely going to hell.
But I've made some peace with that because life on the street is much worse.
If there is no "you" there is no experience of fear or missing.the void/nothingsness scares me shitless. I'm going to miss mom and dad :(
Since consciousness was totally absent, and absolutely nothing existed, it was unconditionally serene... which was infinitely better than any experience that could ever happen in life/existence. - Ever Deeper Honestly
Exactly what @WornOutLife said!Why? Because it'll be just like the time before we were born...
What would it take to convince you that hell does not exist?Do you think they go to hell for committing suicide? It scares me so bad as I am in this position and I was raised Catholic. I break down and cry and pray to God every night.
i know what u mean. i have pain aswell. the uncertainty of manageing chronic pain and the future ahead with it terrifies meWhat do you think happens to people that ctb who have severe chronic pain and neurological damage from severe fibromyalgia and Lyme disease? Do you think they go to hell for committing suicide? It scares me so bad as I am in this position and I was raised Catholic. I break down and cry and pray to God every night. Everyday is just so darn hard. I hope I don't go to hell. It is just so intolerable to go through life every day after day with this kind of pain. Thanks for any feedback!
A friend once told me that if you don't believe in a particular religion's afterlife (I think this was specifically in the context of a conversation about going to hell) then you can't go there after you die. This friend is never wrong, so obviously this statement is 100% correct ;)
More seriously, I think this is why so many people want to die in their sleep without knowledge that they're dying. You go to sleep like normal, and just don't wake up afterwards. You have no awareness of the dying process so there's nothing to be afraid of.
Also, the idea of being punished or rewarded for ETERNITY for a single lifetime of events seems absurd. I also never understood the concept of heaven/whatever good ending you can get. If you still have all your traumas and negative feelings and such, then how is the place you went to a reward? If you've been "cured," then are you even yourself anymore? Maybe heaven is just a place where you can get really good therapy.
What did you experience before you were conceived ?What do you think happens to people that ctb who have severe chronic pain and neurological damage from severe fibromyalgia and Lyme disease? Do you think they go to hell for committing suicide? It scares me so bad as I am in this position and I was raised Catholic. I break down and cry and pray to God every night. Everyday is just so darn hard. I hope I don't go to hell. It is just so intolerable to go through life every day after day with this kind of pain. Thanks for any feedback!
Right here on this site I have been with those who drink SN or N and die before my eyes . Look for new posts that appear stating something like "I'm Drinking SN Now" Etc. . This site is an international 'hospice' of the best type. And as a scientist I know it would bring out the best in hominids if N was available as aspirin .I wish I wasn't afraid of the unknown.
I do quite a bit to desensitize myself to death these days, but I'm not sure how well it is working.
I do find sites where you can view people's last moments interesting.
The main site I used to watch, it has now shut down.
It had it's own section for suicide.
But now it is gone.
There are certain subreddits and other websites, but they did not have such a big section, and knowing reddit, those subreddits are going to be shut down anyway.
I do like looking up the processes of death.
It is just that the fear of the unknown is so paralyzing, and I hate it.
Before conception what did you experience ? :o)Even if I could tolerate the pain, the void/nothingsness scares me shitless. I'm going to miss mom and dad :(
Very well said, @RoseyBird!You are fearing it because you are you and you don't want to lose you. That is normal.