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Euphoricfilth666

Euphoricfilth666

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Nov 2, 2025
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I never wanted to exist. I also dont want to do cbt in some dramatic way, causing a bunch or problems for people around me.
Like, i never asked for this. I never wanted to exist, im miserable being like this.
But then again, im TERRIFIED of pain.. i want to cbt, but if only there was some sort of way for everyone to forget about me when im gone. But thats not possible. Im stuck living a life i never wanted, and theres no easy way out.

im debating if i should post this im terrified to speak up even if im online
 
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telekon

telekon

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this is generally a safe place to vent
 
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Yes safe to vent and most here are going to agree with what you said
 
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Like others said, this is one of the safest places to vent. Plus, you'll find many people who relate to you.
 
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You can vent but I'm just wondering what the reasons are man since nobody want to iill themselves without a reason or do you just feel empty and that nothing matters? Tell me more (if you want ofc)
 
Euphoricfilth666

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You can vent but I'm just wondering what the reasons are man since nobody want to iill themselves without a reason or do you just feel empty and that nothing matters? Tell me more (if you want ofc)
Umm, its kind of a long list,,, I generally dont feel like i belong anywhere, most of my life ive just been ignored by everyone. My parents, classmates, people my age and im just a backup friend. Im just done with everything, i feel numb

Edgy response but this is how i genuinely feel😭
 
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