Venting I'm afraid

[waterworks]

This is not much of a post just my thoughts. The silence is often unbearable.

More and more, it's hard to ignore the fear. I'm consciously aware of all the reasons why this decision is best for me, but the SI is so strong. Now that I have all that I need and it's time to get ready, it's like everything is on overdrive.

I'm just gonna post stuff I learned, to help me shift focus.

 

[BackToLobby]

Yeah my body gets cold and the anxiety kicks in whenever I think about it. This moments makes me realize how miserable is my life man I truly feel like I have no option

 

[Not A Fan]

Researching methods and inert gasses and the whole scavenger hunt of finding all these things online... has become sort of a occupation in itself. Once that is all done and taken care of, there won't be anything else left to do.

That has to be a pretty intense moment of realization.

 

[waterworks]

Researching methods and inert gasses and the whole scavenger hunt of finding all these things online... has become sort of a occupation in itself. Once that is all done and taken care of, there won't be anything else left to do.

That has to be a pretty intense moment of realization.

You're right there.