escaped deep in wikipedia content discussion beef, barely flinching a muscle in my desk chair for 48 hours that go by like nothing. spending all of it arguing whether to move individual sentences into another section citing policy amongst pages worth of reasoning. eventually fading out from this deep episode and realising that reality is not confined to this wikipedia dispute but that i am 20 year old real life living male, a recluse with no life, who doesn't speak to anyone, who is alone, who has no future, who no uni will now ever let study, doing nothing and planning nothing but hoping he will finally get the courage to end his pathetic life like all that is worth doing and yet instead he's thinking how he is writing a dumb entry on a dumb website. that's the reality. and it's hard to go back to giving a shit about some episode thereafter.
