Venting If you're not in 24/7 agony you should honestly be grateful for life.

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

I desperately want to live but I'm being forced to kill myself due to chronic pain && OCD && trauma. I'm likely one of the most severe cases in history and wish I had a gun/off switch to this entire ordeal.

 

[Abyssal]

I'm not in constant agony but life isn't some great gift bestowed upon me. Intellectually speaking, it would be more beneficial had I not been born. Everything people say about the goodness of life is fleeting and while pain is fleeting too, it's all ultimately pointless.

We are creatures designed to feel pain and I'll never be grateful for it.

 

[dinosavr]

I'm really sorry that's how you feel but believe me, life can be too much even without 24/7 agony. Your pain doesn't need to make lesser pains irrelevant

 

[iloverachel]

I'm in pretty much agony all the time apart from when I'm asleep. Even then I have recurring nightmares
I don't think I can ever be possibly grateful for life after close to a decade of agony and torment
Life is truly the most fucked up thing

 

[rozeske]

Here we go again...you and your "my pain is cooler than yours to justify suicide" preach

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Yeah, nobody asked to be alive and nobody is obligated to be grateful for it. You seem to love invalidating other people's problems and telling them that they aren't allowed to want to die while also expecting us to be sympathetic toward you. If you are going to have this attitude then I question why you are even on here in the first place. Being pro-choice and respecting other people's right to end their life if they so please is one of the major aspects of this place and you have shown, over and over again, that you aren't for that. This dumb "trauma Olympics" bs that you constantly pull contributes to members on here feeling as though their problems aren't valid enough.

 

[final_countdown12]

I agree with you.
Im grateful to life.
Im also grateful to be able to choose my time to leave which will be soon.
Sorry for your pain, hope you find peace soon.

 

[Optimu$]

Here we go again...you and your "my pain is cooler than yours to justify suicide" preach

@rozeske

Yeah, nobody asked to be alive and nobody is obligated to be grateful for it. You seem to love invalidating other people's problems and telling them that they aren't allowed to want to die while also expecting us to be sympathetic toward you. If you are going to have this attitude then I question why you are even on here in the first place. Being pro-choice and respecting other people's right to end their life if they so please is one of the major aspects of this place and you have shown, over and over again, that you aren't for that. This dumb "trauma Olympics" bs that you constantly pull contributes to members on here feeling as though their problems aren't valid enough.

@EvisceratedJester

This is commonplace from the OP then?

I'm really sorry that's how you feel but believe me, life can be too much even without 24/7 agony. Your pain doesn't need to make lesser pains irrelevant

@dinosavr To be fair I haven't seen anything in this particular thread insinuating or belittling other users problems.

 

[rozeske]

@rozeske

@EvisceratedJester

This is commonplace from the OP then?


@dinosavr To be fair I haven't seen anything in this particular thread insinuating or belittling other users problems.

Yes, very.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

@EvisceratedJester

This is commonplace from the OP then?

Yes, very common. They've said shit like this multiple times in the past.

Here's a quick thread compilation of him saying this bullshit:

I DESPERATELY WANT TO LIVE

I don't get why people want to die if they're in relatively good health etc etc. I WANT to live but my chronic mental illness is PUSHING me into a position where i HAVE to off myself. It's frustrating. Life has sm opportunities. I love this world even with all the torment and torture.

sanctioned-suicide.net

Life is really good I just got unlucky with genes && trauma (excruciating chronic pain)

Title. It's a bit of a mystery to me why some members here CTB'd but ig it's important to empathize with all of them but if you have family, work, prospects, a future yet end it all prematurely because it's pointless (we all assign meaning to life even if it's arbitrary and this can go from...

sanctioned-suicide.net

I'm likely in more mental pain than everyone here but I still love life?

I still don't regret existing despite a suicide operator literally crying when I was done with 5% of the traumatic things that happened to me. OCD is the worst though 24/7 agony

sanctioned-suicide.net

Jealous of people here because their issues aren't too bad

I see so many folks with lives I would kill for throw it all away because of rather mundane reasons (from my POV). Despote my abundance of trauma (raised by dBPD mother) && mental illnesses: severe OCD, PTSD, etc. I desperate want to get a grip on my suffocating mental disorders and live my...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Some of you need to appreciate your lives more

If you're not in unbearable agony but just "depressed" are lucky as FUCK I desperately want to live but my brain doesn't let me

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Having both mental health issues and chronic pain issues I have to say that the mental health is often causing me more suffering than the physical pain.
But both are indeed horrible

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yeah, no, I should not be grateful for life even if I am not in agony 24/7. Fuck life. Life isn't beautiful at all even without chronic health issues. You still have to wage slave for your entire life and, that, to me, is more than enough suffering. I think that this site really is getting more pro life as people here tend to still justify life itself. No, for me, life itself is the problem and will always be. Life itself is what I hate

 

[willitpass]

Coming from someone who has so many problems it's even hard for many here to comprehend at times, no one here should be using their self-titled "most severe cases" of suffering to invalidate others suffering. I have a laundry list of problems so extensive I can't list it all without forgetting stuff, but that doesn't mean that someone who "only" has depression is any less valid. It is not your place to judge how others are suffering. Suffering is subjective. Do not invalidate others just because you are hurting. If someone is hurting enough to be in a suicide website, they're hurting pretty damn bad.

 

[Dark Moon]

No, I have past trauma, autism, other condition, sometimes physical pain and I think about suicide all the time. I'm not in agony 24/7 but I'm still suffering.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Gratitude is overrated.

 

[divinemistress36]

It's easy to think we have more pain than everyone else but that's not true . Pain is subjective and some people can handle it better than others. I personally cant handle any minor inconveniences. This isn't the suffering Olympics everyone's pain is valid

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

Considering the things going on in the world right now outside this website and outside your life, I do not think you are so unique to be labeled "one of the most severe cases in history". You have no idea what the people who post here are going through, you're just reading posts without actually knowing anything about them personally. You don't get to decide who has it worse based on assumptions you've made about people you've likely never met. I cannot stand types like that.

 

[hopeless08]

I desperately want to live but I'm being forced to kill myself due to chronic pain && OCD && trauma. I'm likely one of the most severe cases in history and wish I had a gun/off switch to this entire ordeal.

I'm sorry you're in this much pain.
I get you though, I don't want to die
but I have no choice because of the unbearable suffering. I so wish I could go back to the happy times I had and amazing moments that I did experience but unfortunately the cruelty of this world has brought us here.
I wish you the best

 

[Throwawayacc3]

I've haven't really gone into OPs posts but what Jester has provided it's clear to see. I think they get the point now so maybe we can lay off going into OP so much.

This is my gripe with it. You don't know what someone else has experienced so you can't put a 1-10 scale on it. I can do the same stuff but it would be pointless. Do you know what cancer is like? The operations? The pain? The nerve fuck ups? No? This is the point.

You shouldn't be in this pain, nor should anyone else here. Our common issue is that we are all fucked: cancer, genetics, relationships, finance, housing, trauma, ptsd, autism, disabled, brain function, abuse, etc.

 

[Sunshine]

Yeah, nobody asked to be alive and nobody is obligated to be grateful for it. You seem to love invalidating other people's problems and telling them that they aren't allowed to want to die while also expecting us to be sympathetic toward you. If you are going to have this attitude then I question why you are even on here in the first place. Being pro-choice and respecting other people's right to end their life if they so please is one of the major aspects of this place and you have shown, over and over again, that you aren't for that. This dumb "trauma Olympics" bs that you constantly pull contributes to members on here feeling as though their problems aren't valid enough.

This is the same guy who dropped a long manifesto saying he is going to kill himself and in that manifesto he included full face pictures of a girl (without her consent) who blocked him, blamed her over and over again that he will kill himself because she blocked him on Discord trying to guilt-trip her into contacting him with the looming threat of suicide, which would be her "fault" if she wouldn't reach out to him.

 

[notevenhere]

This is the same guy who dropped a long manifesto saying he is going to kill himself and in that manifesto he included full face pictures of a girl (without her consent) who blocked him, blamed her over and over again that he will kill himself because she blocked him on Discord trying to guilt-trip her into contacting him with the looming threat of suicide, which would be her "fault" if she wouldn't reach out to him.

what the fuck

 

[Sunshine]

what the fuck

Yeah, the mods had to lock his thread and remove the link. I reached out anonymously to the girl and her community (he included so much information in his "manifesto" that it was easy) to warn and inform them about what this guy was doing and exposing her to everyone online like that without consent. So you know this is the kind of person he is, checks out.

 

[Death is my goal]

I desperately want to live but I'm being forced to kill myself due to chronic pain && OCD && trauma. I'm likely one of the most severe cases in history and wish I had a gun/off switch to this entire ordeal.

what's this absurd title??? leave the fking site nobody wants you here

 

[EvisceratedJester]

This is the same guy who dropped a long manifesto saying he is going to kill himself and in that manifesto he included full face pictures of a girl (without her consent) who blocked him, blamed her over and over again that he will kill himself because she blocked him on Discord trying to guilt-trip her into contacting him with the looming threat of suicide, which would be her "fault" if she wouldn't reach out to him.

Honestly, it's headache inducing. I understand that people sometimes can't help but minimize the pain of others in order to validate their own hurt, but keep that to yourself. I feel very sorry for that girl. To have someone go out of their way to blame you and try to guilt you is just heinous. I'm very glad that she established her boundaries and blocked him. That entire situation shows how unhealthy their interactions likely were. I wish that dude would just take a second to stop only thinking about himself and consider the fact that people have their shit to deal with.

 

[doingitrighthistime]

I desperately want to live but I'm being forced to kill myself due to chronic pain && OCD && trauma. I'm likely one of the most severe cases in history and wish I had a gun/off switch to this entire ordeal.

I've also often wished for an "off" switch. It would be so much easier.

 

[dogbreath]

I'm likely one of the most severe cases in history and wish I had a gun/off switch to this entire ordeal.

Ummm there's children dying in palestine??? Who also want to live???


Srsly tho I'm sorry ur going thru all that but it's not very nice to invalidate others people's problems,,,as cliche as this sounds, no matter how deep the water everyone's drowning :S

 

[aidic]

No one wins in the suffering olympics. We're all in this together.

 

[Abyssal]

I understand the backlash in this thread but just as someone said, pain is subjective. This person is probably in a great deal of pain and does truly feel that they are suffering. Let's please keep this in mind.

 

[UmbraDweller]

No.

 

[untothedepths]

Nobody should invalidate anyone's pain. Physical pain does not triumph over mental/emotional pain, and vice versa.

Both hurt so painfully in their unique ways. Physical pain is very apparent and straightforward, but mental pain can take everything that made who you are and ruin it. It can corrode everything you love and cherished. It will drag you down and your whole world will change. Physical pain also may bring mental and emotional pain as well, And mental/emotional pain can bring on diseases, so more physical pain.

Who is anyone to dare judge another, especially on Sasu? I think you forget where you are.