Well said. My heart goes out to everyone who is in pain - but I have to be honest, reading the comments also brought a smile to my miserable self!
Mine as well and I'm not trying to diminish the reality of living with severe ocd because it is hell but everyones situation is a little different even with the same disorder. There are millions of factors that can play into each individuals pain and everyone handles pain differently.
You know, that's kind of what's happened to me. I mean, things were bad before, but my own single 'what if…' thought took things to a new level of hell. It seems crazy your mind can just…do that. Like a switch flipping.
plus a google search of "the worst mental disorder" brings up pages and pages with answer of "bpd"
BPD (EUPD) has destroyed my long relationship that lasted 15 years because I was unable to control my emotions and understand normal reactions, I feel sick and embarrassed, pathetic. I'm annoyed they recognised & diagnosed me with it. I feel like the title will push people away before I even get to breakdown in front of them. I hate this. I couldn't say I'm in more mental pain because I think all of us here are equally in pain for different reasons. Personally I think those with a physical condition plus bad mental health are truly in more pain but even then we're all on here because we want to ctb, we may love life but want to ctb because we won't live life to the fullest. Our realities have changed.
Dude, this is the third time you've made a "suffering Olympics" type post or whatever. Will you stop? You don't know everyone's backstory on here and there are probably plenty of people on this site who have had it way worse than you and still decide not make to make posts like these. I've literally read a post from somebody on here who, if I remember correctly (I skimmed through it a few months back), was SA'd, abused, witnessed domestic abuse, had a gun shoot off part of their face, and then got bullied at school for wearing a prosthetic face. Nowhere in that post do I remember said person gloating about how they had it worse than others.
For me, it completely changed my reality and showed me how incredibly fragile the mind is. And if you knew mine "what if" thought, how ridiculously, pathetic it is, throwing your life away over something like that.
No, I haven't had much luck finding a good therapist. Medication has helped a little. What about you?
Gonna sound like a shit answer but not thinking about how much you wanna die. I am not fucking with you, that's the best I got
I tried all kinds of therapies, hospitals and meds. Only CBT/exposure therapy helped a bit, but still far from leading a normal life. That's what I would recommend to you trying out, if you haven't yet.
