Life is really good I just got unlucky with genes && trauma (excruciating chronic pain)

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Title.

It's a bit of a mystery to me why some members here CTB'd but ig it's important to empathize with all of them but if you have family, work, prospects, a future yet end it all prematurely because it's pointless (we all assign meaning to life even if it's arbitrary and this can go from ideals to just good food) that's odd to me. I'd LOVE living if this chronic pain went away then I'd be grinding in the gym, hiking, travellnig to the coast.

I had nearly 30.000 euro saved up at one point but even without this it'd take maybe 250 USD to have a fun weekend strollng on the beach or visiting some of my friends. Either way, I hope some folks on here understand how privileged they are and turn their lives around.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Sorry but you aren't the same as other people. Everybody is different and if they want to ctb despite "having a good/privileged life", they should have the right to do so. Just because you wouldn't ctb in their situation doesn't make their situation any less valid than what it already is. Wanting to ctb should be a personal choice, not something that should be dictated by your subjective ideals of how one should be viewing life as

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Title.

It's a bit of a mystery to me why some members here CTB'd but ig it's important to empathize with all of them but if you have family, work, prospects, a future yet end it all prematurely because it's pointless (we all assign meaning to life even if it's arbitrary and this can go from ideals to just good food) that's odd to me. I'd LOVE living if this chronic pain went away then I'd be grinding in the gym, hiking, travellnig to the coast. I had nearly 30.000 euro saved up at one point but even without this it'd take maybe 250 USD to have a fun weekend strollng on the beach or visiting some of my friends. Either way, I hope some folks on here understand how privileged they are and turn their lives around.

Chester Bennington - biggest rock band ever, money to do whatever, family and children.

2017 - Hung himself.

Just because that's your experience doesn't mean everyone is like you. It's like me saying to you "you know what I went through with cancer - explain it" . You can't. Please don't adopt this normie attitude.

Edit: when I was in Spain for the last time I went to the beach. You know what it's like? The void. Staring out into the ocean of nothing. It didn't matter that my partner (at the time) gave me water and sat next to me and then sun was out. Everyone's situation is different.

 

[justcallmeJ]

Everyone has their reasons. I thought I would want to go on the recovery path again after my vacation with my lovely bf last week , and despite it being best moments in my life, not a day went by without wanting to ctb. I would love it if I could recover, but life for me is a very dark place.
Im sorry you have to live with the chronic pain, i can understand its your reason you want to ctb :(

 

[BrainShower]

Life is quite subjective. One person's "great life" is another person's living hell.
Value judgements seem to be frivolous if not actually hurtful in a place like this.
Glad you have some good things in your life op.
Not everyone does.

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Life is quite subjective. One person's "great life" is another person's living hell.
Value judgements seem to be frivolous if not actually hurtful in a place like this.
Glad you have some good things in your life op.
Not everyone does.

I'm in excruciating mental torment so right meow I don't enjoy life but even the small attachments to some Discord friends keep me going a little bit longer

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I'm likely in more mental pain than everyone here but I still love life?

I still don't regret existing despite a suicide operator literally crying when I was done with 5% of the traumatic things that happened to me. OCD is the worst though 24/7 agony

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Jealous of people here because their issues aren't too bad

I see so many folks with lives I would kill for throw it all away because of rather mundane reasons (from my POV). Despote my abundance of trauma (raised by dBPD mother) && mental illnesses: severe OCD, PTSD, etc. I desperate want to get a grip on my suffocating mental disorders and live my...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Some of you need to appreciate your lives more

If you're not in unbearable agony but just "depressed" are lucky as FUCK I desperately want to live but my brain doesn't let me

sanctioned-suicide.net

Back at it again with this bs I see...

Even people who seem like they have everything going for them can suffer. Just because you love living doesn't mean that's the case for others. Even people who seem to have life all sorted out have their own traumas, illnesses (be it mental or physical), and issues to deal with. Life is complex and everyones experiences differ from one another. You can't tell what someone is going through just by looking at them and making assumptions. Just as how the only person who can understand how much pain you are in is you, that same logic applies to everyone else.

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

I'm likely in more mental pain than everyone here but I still love life?

I still don't regret existing despite a suicide operator literally crying when I was done with 5% of the traumatic things that happened to me. OCD is the worst though 24/7 agony

sanctioned-suicide.net

Jealous of people here because their issues aren't too bad

I see so many folks with lives I would kill for throw it all away because of rather mundane reasons (from my POV). Despote my abundance of trauma (raised by dBPD mother) && mental illnesses: severe OCD, PTSD, etc. I desperate want to get a grip on my suffocating mental disorders and live my...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Some of you need to appreciate your lives more

If you're not in unbearable agony but just "depressed" are lucky as FUCK I desperately want to live but my brain doesn't let me

sanctioned-suicide.net

Back at it again with this bs I see...

Bet!

 

[UKscotty]

Money and status of course helps but loads of rich and powerful CTB. On the flip side loads of what we would say are poor or disadvantaged are buzzing with life and happy.

Depression and other mental health issues don't care about our bank balance or social class.

 

[noctilucent]

For me, I have all my needs met even if I'm not rich or anything, so I often feel like I'm stupid for how I feel. And posts like this only feed into that, which I guess is fine LOL. But I feel it anyway, and the mental pain is unbearable a lot of the time.

In my own case, I was unlucky with bad genes too, just in the mental department. Back when I first started wanting to ctb, I hadn't experienced anything awful. I was only 12, and my life was fine. But around puberty the hormonal stuff triggered inhereted mental illness related genetic stuff, and boom, I've been consistently suicidal for over a decade. Of course, I've been through awful things since then, but I would've felt this way even if I hadn't.

Even without that sort of genetic reason, though, people simply have emotional pain that doesn't always logically make sense. It is not your place to judge whether someone is worthy of feeling like dying or not, and that sort of attitude is only harmful.

 

[rozeske]

Back at it again with this bs I see...

It's most people's problem am afraid. They never really understand the extent of it until they are in that persons shoe.

To add to the list of threads.....

update

i uh,,, yeah. i haven't been here in a long time, probably was unnoticed which is fine. i just wanted to update that i didn't commit suicide. this is more of a vent rather than expecting an answer. i'm fine, i feel happy. i'm noticing things i haven't noticed before. i'm going to keep going...

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