Why do people hesitate and others just go for it?
-
Hey Guest,
If you want to donate, we have a thread with updated donation options here at this link: About Donations
ARW3N
Melancholia
- Dec 25, 2019
- 366
I think even those who just go for it and leap to their deaths were thinking about it a long time beforehand in order to circumvent the survival instinct.
I would probably hesitate, or even contemplate, unless it was a spur of the moment thing. Once I was walking across a motorway bridge to the train station to get a train to work and although I always looked over the edge of that bridge and imagined jumping, for some reason this time was different. All these thoughts went through my head, I was working for money that I was spending on a degree that I already knew I was going to fail, to try and impress people I hate in a system I hate and I was so sure I was going to jump, take a run up and just go, no hesitation... but then I realised the wall was too high and I was too fat and I got really upset because I just wanted to die so badly. I'm not sure I would have hesitated at that moment if it was an easy jump. Other times, I believe I would stand there for a few minutes just to feel the calmness before I'm gone.
I've been thinking about it for 10 yrs but it doesn't feel any easier.
I'm thinking of using a step ladder. It's lightweight. I'd park on the bridge and move quickly to the barrier. I don't think the bridge is very busy. Almost a 10 hr drive though. I'll be exhausted
Last edited:
LostInSociety
Member
- Oct 8, 2020
- 19
I would jump. Hell I made it to there so the decision was already made.
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,541
I don't think I could ever make myself jump. Big phobia of jumping, falling, drowning, and just excruciating pain in general... I also want to be able to change my mind and not realize too late I did the wrong thing.
The getting there part is easy. I drove to the Golden Gate Bridge once. I didn't go there to die but I was passively suicidal and couldn't get myself to do it. I'm worried this time will be the same.
TripleA
life is a struggle you cannot win
- Sep 25, 2020
- 276
Changing your mind is just SI kicking in.
What if there's a barrier? You climb it and are left standing.
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,541
That changes nothing for me. When I do it, I don't want to be backed into a corner and forced to finish.
TripleA
life is a struggle you cannot win
- Sep 25, 2020
- 276
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,541
LOL
So my only choices are jump or live? I didn't realize suicide was so black and white!
How does one go from hesitation to actually jumping? That barrier is tricky.
raindrops
Someday, eventually
- Mar 29, 2020
- 429
im afraid of the unknown, will i feel pain when hitting the ground or will i be knocked out instantly, its 104m enough height?
i need to go look at the cliff but its 1pm here now and it also costs £4.50 on the bus just one way... so if i change my mind it will be £10 on the bus.
i need to do things like have a bath, clean my room, sit with my grandmother for a bit, message my sisters i love them, i want to leave a really short simple blunt message as my fb status too, nothing that indicates anything, then I'd go.
i need to go look at the cliff but its 1pm here now and it also costs £4.50 on the bus just one way... so if i change my mind it will be £10 on the bus.
i need to do things like have a bath, clean my room, sit with my grandmother for a bit, message my sisters i love them, i want to leave a really short simple blunt message as my fb status too, nothing that indicates anything, then I'd go.
No it's not about jumping in your case. You'd have to rule out hanging among other methods too.
If high enough, it should be instantaneous. Still scary though.
raindrops
Someday, eventually
- Mar 29, 2020
- 429
or maybe a really cringey fb status like "i wish i was prettier, some days i wish i was her so then you'd love me, i wish didn't let anxiety consume me, i wish i was with him and accepted, i wish i had family and my own family, i wish to be settled, i wish i could turn back the clock and i wish half of you on here that are my fb friends would be real friends"
thats true, most days i wake up and think about ctb but i look at the weather and think meh too cold, too rainy, too windy.
the sun just come out here, no wind must be a sign
Last edited:
Lupgevif
.
- Jul 23, 2020
- 929
I would hesitate. I do want to die, but I lived the life of a coward always making excuses to not pursue what I truly wanted, this time it wouldn't be different.
Last edited:
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,541
Yes, true. I'm not planning on jumping, hanging, trains, or guns. But that doesn't mean I don't have a way out.
Anyway, your question was specifically about jumping, and that's my stance. I wouldn't jump because I'm terrified of it.
What method is best for people like us?
Why instant death hard to accept?
grungeCat
Awkward & weird
- Jul 5, 2020
- 1,110
Determination is not enough to overcome SI. Even if I was entirely sure I want to end my life and nothing can one do to change my mind then I had still hesitated to jump off the building. And I didn't. Act of suicide requires very strong self-discipline. Something I lack my whole life. My anxiety has just paralysed me. I couldn't move a single muscle to take that one fucking step. I was just standing there and crying like an idiot till my awkwardness attracted the police. I guess this method is just too violent.
Lupgevif
.
- Jul 23, 2020
- 929
No idea, I am going for a type of suspension, just can't decide which one yet. I am not scared of pain per se, I am scared of the fact it is a terminal decision, something that can't be undone; even if by now I have concluded I do want to die, I have always been scared of doing things that changed my life forever.
Lux
Member
- Sep 17, 2020
- 61
I know I want to jump, but I can't. I tried. Or well I tried off of a cliff but same idea. I just stood and sat there. My SI just kind of stops me. I can imagine just running and jumping but I can't do it.
My city is full of bridges that I have stood gazing off of many times . I'm still here, so that answers that question.
One time though I had full intention to jump but I determined the fall wouldn't kill me (only 48m). Might in winter though .....
One time though I had full intention to jump but I determined the fall wouldn't kill me (only 48m). Might in winter though .....
TheSomebody
...
- Sep 28, 2020
- 283
A member here was in a bridge for a long time, just thinking, but it attracted a lot of attention from the authorities. Since reading that, I've been thinking about just going to a bridge to sit and think. No agenda. Just contemplation.
I've wondered if spending time on the bridge will make me less scared of death. Perhaps the experience might offer me some clarity. Perhaps with clarity, I might decide to jump. Who knows? It would be great if I could guarantee solitude, though. I wouldn't want the police showing up. It would ruin the experience.
I've wondered if spending time on the bridge will make me less scared of death. Perhaps the experience might offer me some clarity. Perhaps with clarity, I might decide to jump. Who knows? It would be great if I could guarantee solitude, though. I wouldn't want the police showing up. It would ruin the experience.
Sadgirl17
Member
- Oct 10, 2020
- 7
Infinite Conscious
Experienced
- Aug 18, 2020
- 282
I wish... you didn't sound like you're not ready.
I wish you weren't so young.
I wish you postponed this decision until you figure out what you really want in life, because you obviously long for family, friends and - him.
Similar threads
- Rebecca
- Suicide Discussion
Suicide Discussion
Rebecca
