If you found the love of your life would you still want to ctb?

[DarkDays97]

I have found love and have a loving partner. She is amazing and I hate the fact that I'm not happy. She throws so much love and care at me but it just goes right through me. It's a horrible feeling. I can't give the same back. Not even able to acknowledge it

 

[BlackMoon]

No. I would still be depressed but not suicidal anymore.

Sadly it's absolutely impossible to happen.

 

[mortuarymary]

I have found love and have a loving partner. She is amazing and I hate the fact that I'm not happy. She throws so much love and care at me but it just goes right through me. It's a horrible feeling. I can't give the same back. Not even able to acknowledge it

Very similar. But I love him, so I won't CTB. Well not for a long time. He's put up with too much shit from me and he's still here. Guy needs a medal lol

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes, I'd still want to ctb because my issue is existence itself. Not even love is enough to make me want to voluntarily continue living

 

[DarkDays97]

Very similar. But I love him, so I won't CTB. Well not for a long time. He's put up with too much shit from me and he's still here. Guy needs a medal lol

That's really sweet. I wish I had that mentality. She's kept me here for years. But fuck me it's getting unbearable

 

[mortuarymary]

That's really sweet. I wish I had that mentality. She's kept me here for years. But fuck me it's getting unbearable

I get it. So close in the summer to CTB. But I resisted, plus I've a 13 year old three legged dog. I can't leave him.

 

[Fulminare]

Yes. Why would my circumstances all of the sudden change just by meeting a love interest?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I'm so beyond that bs .

The mind is everything what you think you become

My Non-existence is what I love. I love my shotgun that can actually help me escape this hell.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Absolutely not. My inability to find the love of my life due to her not existing is really the main cause of me wanting to CTB in the first place. I say it's impossible for me but really my odds are ""only"" around 1 in 14,000,000,605. I have a better chance of losing all my hair during a total eclipse on Arbor Day while listening to the Marine Corps Band playing 'Home on the Range' and watching a Badminton match between two guys named Ichabod than at finding such a person though.

But yes, if by some sheer miracle I do manage to actually find the love of my life and succeed in romancing her, I suppose then and only then would I finally feel free to renounce my need to CTB. That is unless of course, life finds a way and decides to take her away from me somehow whether by death or infidelity. After that the urge to CTB would make my current urges now look like child's play.

 

[nembutal]

no love conquers all

 

[lucas28481]

yea

 

[brokeandbroken]

Just curious. I sometimes wonder what would happen if that happened if I would be more or less depressed. Most attractive women my age though are taken. How do you feel about it?

It would be enough. That said I don't think I am good enough for this to truly happen.

 

[Malaria]

I am in a relationship and I still think about suicide almost everyday. It's nothing to do with him, he's really a sweet and caring person, I just have way too much trauma and mental disorders that makes me want to escape my pain.

 

[LifeIsCrazyNemb]

If i still find the love of my life i'd probably find a way to fuck things up due to my fucked up mind.
Happened a couple of times in my life, had the opportunity to met wonderful womens and always found a way to deteriotate eveything.
In other words, i'd still CTB as planned.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Such a thing is rare. Love comes and goes. Not interested in that bs anymore

 

[Final_Choice]

Probably, I more than likely would not let myself get to close to anyone in such a way because I want to CTB and that might end up hurting them in the long run. So if I met someone like that I might think of the possibility, maybe it would be enough to at least lower my desire to CTB for some time, but overall not worth it if it means I might end up doing so much damage to someone I care about, when instead I can just not get close to them.

 

[TDF]

No, I would live. But I have no idea how to achieve that. I want enduring love based on mutual understand and acceptance and commitment not just some temporary infatuation. So far no cigar sadly, even a 10 year marriage turned out to be built on lies .

 

[reisen]

probably yes, i feel like love always causes trouble and would make me wanna ctb more and at the end of the day im still me, and im the problem

 

[wanttodie]

yes i would you still and my life

 

[Dliena]

Yes but I don't think I'm finding any type of love on this planet not like I'd bother anyway too much trials and errors won't always work out IMHO.

 

[JezebelDuLioncourt]

I have met the love of my life. We spent eleven years together on this planet. They had been the happiest years of my life. She is now in the afterlife, where I will be joining her in a couple of months. No better reason to leave this earthly body than to be with my soulmate eternal.

 

[InAgony]

Yes, because meeting the love of my life wouldn't solve my problems.

 

[Bat12]

The love of my life would want too die with me.

I agree, I always feel any kind of normal love i may get isn't meant for me and id reject it. All i can imagine a short lived future with is one with the same thoughts and feelings of the world that will die early on with me at peace. Love is one crazy thought:

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Absolutely not. My inability to find the love of my life due to her not existing is really the main cause of me wanting to CTB in the first place. I say it's impossible for me but really my odds are ""only"" around 1 in 14,000,000,605. I have a better chance of losing all my hair during a total eclipse on Arbor Day while listening to the Marine Corps Band playing 'Home on the Range' and watching a Badminton match between two guys named Ichabod than at finding such a person though.

But yes, if by some sheer miracle I do manage to actually find the love of my life and succeed in romancing her, I suppose then and only then would I finally feel free to renounce my need to CTB. That is unless of course, life finds a way and decides to take her away from me somehow whether by death or infidelity. After that the urge to CTB would make my current urges now look like child's play.

I retract this painfully childish answer. This foolish dribble was unwittingly spilt by a naive young fool in his 20s. I am now 30 and therefore wiser thanks to being reminded of this scene from Rick and Morty.


Basically even in the rare 1 in 14,000,605 chance that I did find someone, I might still constantly want to CTB from all the fear I have of losing them, which would ironically likely drive them away, which would bring me right back where I am now. This unconquerable fear I have inside will always persist and be there to destroy me.

"Best case scenario, think about this, best case is that you die at the same time…"

 

[xmissellax]

Yes. I have the love of my life. And I still want to CTB. Love cannot fix everything and we can't expect it to. We can't expect ordinary people to have the tools to significantly help depression/suicidal thoughts/OCD/Autism and ideation. He deserves better than what I can provide for him and I don't want him to be basically like my carer, mentally and sometimes physically with my chronic health conditions, for the rest of his life. Luckily he understands or is coming round to fully understanding. He wants to live, I want him to live and experience his life and urged him to do so.

 

[AnxietyHangover]

No, it would truly fix me. That's my main issue. This lonely loveless life.

 

[sserafim]

What if you ctb with the love of your life

 

[bettertosleep]

i have finally found him, he's perfect in every way. but i still feel like something is missing. we're online so hopefully once we meet up things will get better for the both of us

 

[lita-lassi]

i had him and he left me for dead after 5 1/2 years so

 

[falling_snow]

id like to find it, but i really think that it doesnt exist.

but if he does, maybe id stay for him