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lifeisactualtorture

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Aug 6, 2024
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I'm glad you finally found peace. I'm truly sorry how you suffered in this life and I understand the pain very well and the bravery it took to make it stop.
 
Rudi

Rudi

𝔐𝔬𝔯𝔦 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬 𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔳𝔦𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬
Oct 15, 2024
142
I know I'm a little late and I'm sorry things didn't work out for you. Rest in Peace. <3
 
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Peace2peace

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Dec 26, 2024
363
Anyone with the compressed version? file quite large
 
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NitrogenAfternoon

NitrogenAfternoon

Finding My Peace
Jan 20, 2025
142
very thankful we have these resources, and that people were willing to share it with this community before they ctb. Another one that looks really peaceful all things considered. Thank you for documenting this and hope you found your peace.
 
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restlesseyes

restlesseyes

Type of tired no amount of sleep can fix
Feb 19, 2025
77
Last time online was Monday!
I seen that also I wondered what happened I wasn't able to see video but as described by other people he was vomiting then had abnormal breathing then no breathing ?
 
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
668
I have seen poison deaths, and they are normally brutal. NS no. So if somebody knows of a video link. tks.,
 
anonymous2025

anonymous2025

Still preparing to 🚍. 🌈
Apr 9, 2025
209
At first I was unable to view the videos. Then I saw a comment that said he view them on drop box, no download needed. So I clicked the Dropbox link, open in browser when prompted, click the camera file then 4 files pop up, 3 videos and a photo. Just wanted to share how to view them. Also I haven't viewed them yet, going back now. Rest in peace.
 
2messdup

2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,276
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At first I was unable to view the videos. Then I saw a comment that said he view them on drop box, no download needed. So I clicked the Dropbox link, open in browser when prompted, click the camera file then 4 files pop up, 3 videos and a photo. Just wanted to share how to view them. Also I haven't viewed them yet, going back now. Rest in peace.
Dropbox doesn't work either. Too many views
 
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
668
I was able to see. I think he resisted vomiting evidenced by the large line of saliva hanging from his mouth as he lays back. I also think he was feeling the headache as he repeatedly put his hand up to his head, but he only stirs a little bit, so light pain perhaps. Agonal breathing does kick in around 16 Minutes I would guess. Im no Dr. His body could have just had him breathing heavy. I didnt see the usual "death rattle". He also appears to be heavily sedated throughout. Sorry I didnt create a good time for you my friend, but here are my observations nonetheless.

May you have found your peace. :heart:
 
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deathisapanacea

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Mar 10, 2025
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RIP Champ. If I were even half as meticulous as you, my life wouldn't be as fucked up as it is now.
 
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Cupcake

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Apr 8, 2018
123
I was able to see. I think he resisted vomiting evidenced by the large line of saliva hanging from his mouth as he lays back. I also think he was feeling the headache as he repeatedly put his hand up to his head, but he only stirs a little bit, so light pain perhaps. Agonal breathing does kick in around 16 Minutes I would guess. Im no Dr. His body could have just had him breathing heavy. I didnt see the usual "death rattle". He also appears to be heavily sedated throughout. Sorry I didnt create a good time for you my friend, but here are my observations nonetheless.

May you have found your peace. :heart:
thank you for describing what you saw in the videos. i am visually impaired and could only rely on the audio parts of the video, and there wasn't a whole lot to go on with audio alone. so thank you. as he' stated, he wanted someone to describe it for people who are visually impaired, so you made his wish come true, and i am eternally grateful. sn is my method. from the audio alone, it sounded fairly peaceful, but another member somewhere commented that he seemed unsettled in the beginning, but didn't elaborate. but maybe what they meant was what you described, the holding his head and the string of saliva as he resisted vomiting. a part from that, did it look peaceful

sorry no capital letters or question marks. the shift keys on my laptop aren't working.

cheers,

cupcake
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
668
thank you for describing what you saw in the videos. i am visually impaired and could only rely on the audio parts of the video, and there wasn't a whole lot to go on with audio alone. so thank you. as he' stated, he wanted someone to describe it for people who are visually impaired, so you made his wish come true, and i am eternally grateful. sn is my method. from the audio alone, it sounded fairly peaceful, but another member somewhere commented that he seemed unsettled in the beginning, but didn't elaborate. but maybe what they meant was what you described, the holding his head and the string of saliva as he resisted vomiting. a part from that, did it look peaceful

sorry no capital letters or question marks. the shift keys on my laptop aren't working.

cheers,

cupcake
As I said he appears to be heavily sedated. He repeadily puts his hand to his head, and even rolls back, and forth from his back to his side a few times. I think there was discomfort there, but he was not crying out in pain either. So Im guessing there is some discomfort ( which could be emotional ) , but it is low compared to other methods is how Im looking at it myself.
 
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Cupcake

Student
Apr 8, 2018
123
As I said he appears to be heavily sedated. He repeadily puts his hand to his head, and even rolls back, and forth from his back to his side a few times. I think there was discomfort there, but he was not crying out in pain either. So Im guessing there is some discomfort ( which could be emotional ) , but it is low compared to other methods is how Im looking at it myself.
ok, thanks for clarifying. your observasion is extremely valuable to me. it helps me feel more comfortable using sn. again, thank you so much.
 
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1weirdError

1weirdError

Your Local Clown; It/They/He
Dec 1, 2023
6
Is it just me, or did the dropbox link go down? I was able to view it yesterday
 

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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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This is deep you,, did it,, this world is so painful, I wish you all the peace, because I'm convinced that this the only way to gain it.
You deserved better from this world,, every last one of us,, you can't see this whatever but I can, and I'll remember, I hope that I can come along with you in due time..
 
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plytiene

plytiene

I won't be happy or unhappy. I won't be.
May 18, 2025
26
The dropbox links are indeed down for the time being, though it apparently was reuploaded somewhere else (see
For some reason these are very rare so i thought it would be good to post. Does not look too bad.

); otherwise the drive links are up but, drive links.
Rest in peace.
Useful for me to see that raw SN is probably inadvisable if vomitting occurs with benzos anyway. I guess I'll need to see about finding something that helps the process, despite how meto seems a pain to get.
 
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GuyWhoDiesin2025

GuyWhoDiesin2025

♥ FLY HIGH JOE WINKO ♥ 1995 - 2025 ♥ FOREVER 29 ♥
Apr 13, 2025
13
FLY HIGH SISTER! ♥ I HOPE YOU ESCAPED ALL THE HORRIBLE SUFFERING YOU WENT THROUGH! ♥ MAY YOU BE HAPPY FOREVER WHERE YOU GO! ♥
 
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tshirt

Member
Mar 19, 2025
24
the courage of people to do this is just unbelievable. if there's a single thing i hope, its that in the end there is peace for all of us. rest easy
 
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darkandtwisty

darkandtwisty

Member
Jul 10, 2024
79
If one didn't know any better, it just looks like they're sleeping but snores loudly. It seemed peaceful but the feelings you have after consuming, increased heart rate and neurological issues, is what scares me.
 
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pancita

New Member
Jun 18, 2025
3
Espero que vc esteja descansando bem, phoebie.
 
darksouls

darksouls

Wizard
May 10, 2025
664
hope you found the peace you were looking for 🕊️
 

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