I'm not entirely sure on how to "start" with this website. Whether I make a post discussing my current position within this forum or maybe 'Suicide Discussion'. I'm a bit at odds with the idea of suicide and recovery I suppose. I certainly don't feel the best about myself (especially in the last two to three months) but at the same time I don't want to entirely give up. I suppose I feel that if I've been keeping at it for the last nine years, it seems silly to let an intense peak of these feelings completely crash me up.
Maybe somebody else on here can give me an idea to leap off with?
Congratulations! You made your first leap. Welcome to the Recovery thread. I'm glad you found your way here. Although I'm sorry your life has brought you to the point of joining this site.
When I joined over a year ago, work, family mental and physical health left me feeling like I had no future. While those feeling still persist, this community has been kind and caring, and I felt I could open up about thing I could tell my therapist. I have stuck around for the benefit of my kids, although I will lose two sons this week (but that's another story).
Where to begin? Start by reading other's stories. Post your own, either in a new thread or in the
Introduce Yourself thread. Youre welcome to post additional details here in this thread, or if you're not comfortable posting publicly, feel free to dm me (or let me know you'd like to talk and I can dm you.)
Based on you initial post here, I would recommend avoiding the Suicide Discussion forum for the time being. There can be some dark threads that may not be helpful until you make that decision.
have a wedding, I have to attend on Saturday. 12 or 13 hours of horrible anxiety and panic and act normal or else I am not human.
I can totally relate... I had to attend a wedding a few weeks ago and while I love my nephew, it was completely overwhelming. I found a trick though... find the oldest person in at the reception and go a sit with them. They probably won't be able to hear you so you don't have to talk, and you look like a saint for keep them company. I also took long walks around the venue to escape the crowds.
And I hope all goes well with the doctor's office. That job doesn't sound like the most pleasant, but at least you'd be working and contributing.
Wishing you all just a little peace as we slowly wrap down the summer.
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