
HighFlight55
Experienced
- Jun 28, 2023
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Welcome @heavyeyes! Hopefully, you can find some support from this group to help keep you motivated to finish your tasks. And who knows what the future might hold. Wishing you all the best.
I feel you 🫂Since my last post yesterday, I could not find what was up from what was down. I feel as if this all could take me to non-existence, if that makes any sense.
A strong feeling of doubt came over me, and I’m trying to remember what the first resolve felt like. It feels strange to already not remember anything.
I cannot find it in me, maybe only for today, to have energy to thoughtfully and genuinely reply to others.
Best wishes for others, take care.
I feel those soulcrushing feelings a lot.Hello,
Today, I experienced a childhood memory flashback that nearly make me want to give up everything.
It felt so hopeless, and I want to one day be in a place where it can be looked back on without this soul crushing feeling.
My nerves are acting up recently, making typing difficult and increasingly slow. I still want to persevere if I can.
Please take care, wishing you the best
That’s awesome!Been feeling hopeless but my heart just leaped.
Where I live may have overturned the rule that made it impossible for me to get testosterone. This pushes me so much farther to get better. I can look like me, I can get facial hair!!
Ty for the good thoughts 🫂Had a crappy day today - feel like shit (hoping it's not COVID) and it m8ght mean I have to postpone my ketamine session tomorrow.
Hopefully, everyone else had a better day than I did.
Welcome on board bro/sis 🌟🫂🫶🏼Ahoy. First time here. Last attempt was in June. the MCOT was supposed to dispatch to do an assessment with me today and flaked on me. Hoping to find support through community, if you'll have me.
It’s good that you got a slightly better sleep 🌟🫂Hey everyone. Not much to report with me today.
I finally got some halfway decent sleep after a few nights of only sleeping an hour or two.
I hope everyone is doing ok today ❤️🩹🫂
We’re so glad to have you here 🫂i suppose for me, I vow to see the 45 years that my doctor promised me with my initial diagnosis.
i want to challenge my thinking that because I am disabled that i've been put away and out of the mind. I want to start taking my medicine regularly again.
At this point in my life, at the cusp of 30 and living alone, I don't have many external forces that cause me distress, which I'm glad of. I want to be able to clean my home and find peace before i do reach that deadline. I want to meet that like a challenger. I want to have the courage to fight it.
So happy to hear that ❤️🥰💝Probably gunna pass out soon. My mom said I could have a happy, stress-free day, wish me luck that stays true and she keeps her promise. My body is healing, even though I'm nauseated and anxious and tired, my appetite is back and I don't feel mentally like shit.
I love you guys. You guys really saved me, saved us. If you ever need a reason to stay alive, remember how you are saving us, a body that houses the minds of around a thousand people. <3
Recently I got something similar. A full-feeling, full-pain, explicit and very lucid flashback to CSA that I was aware happened, just not to that extent.Hello,
Today, I experienced a childhood memory flashback that nearly make me want to give up everything.
It felt so hopeless, and I want to one day be in a place where it can be looked back on without this soul crushing feeling.
My nerves are acting up recently, making typing difficult and increasingly slow. I still want to persevere if I can.
Please take care, wishing you the best
You hope you managed to get through it 🫂🌟Recently I got something similar. A full-feeling, full-pain, explicit and very lucid flashback to CSA that I was aware happened, just not to that extent.
We wish YOU all the best, stay safe.
What’s MCOT?🤗checking in today. was able to pick up my medications at the pharmacy.
insurance wasn't charged for one of my meds. annoying, but not a world ending schenario.
MCOT called me back and let me know she was on a call until 11pm yesterday and that she didn't mean to flake and she still cares about me. She's gen X and doesn't really understand queer struggles and anxieties, but she still tries to be an ally and advocate.
feeling better, in general. going to be able to take my meds and HRT for the first time this month.
Congrats on doing it. Takes balls to go deep + taking ketamineHey all,
Felt a little better today and was able to have my ketamine therapy session. It was a weird trip which I'll detail in a separate thread I've been keeping about my ketamine experience.
I hope everyone else had a good day. Peace.
Interesting, I don't think we have one in our area. I know a couple years ago when our cops decided to pepper spray a 9 year old girl, they talked about putting a mobile mental health response unit together. But I'm not sure they made it out of the planning stage. I'm going to research.Mobile Crisis Outreach Team
Aaah, ok.@venin
What's MCOT?🤗
It's the Mobile Crisis Outreach Team. They're on call for crisis dispatch to do assessments for hospitalization, helping with coping skills at home, and court
Today was good. my meds had me sleep REALLY long. Slept until 2:30pm.
a new episode of Ghost Files came out and it was fun. I bought some water and a couple cans of chili.
Last night Greg ((my leachieanus gecko)) drank a lot from a bottle cap and seemed happy. He made little greg sounds at me, and that made me happy.
pic of him attached.
Happy for you ♥️🫂Greg is doing well today. seems happy, so I'm happy for him.
Checked my cpu core temps, they were 88 degrees and that put me in a panic until i messed with my settings and saw that I was using F instead of C; oops
missed an event I was looking forwards to bc my meds made me sleep really long, but the person I was going to do it with wants to have tea together tomorrow.
My wizard hat with Cowboy hat brim project is going EXCELLENT!! I just need to crochet a hat band. Feeling really good.
kinda sucky, I'm currently writing tests (ig they're midterms?) only i struggle to study and my ideation's pretty high atm so i can't bring myself to even care about failing them. but in doing so i'm just decreasing my chances of getting to where i want to be in life assuming i don't ctb firstHow are you? How’s your day?
I actually really appreciate the name change. I personally don't know how to feel about participating in recovery threads because i'm honestly far from committed to recovery. but as long as i'm here i would like to feel a little better.As you’ve seen, @Dot changed the name of the thread. The reason for this is that it would also be available for people who still intend on ctb-ing but want to feel slightly better and need support throughout their daily life until their departure. The thread is only here for support, community, advice, etc. It’s not meant to influence anybody in any way. If someone decides to go, it’s their decision. If they decide to recover, it’s their decision as well. If someone changes their mind, it’s perfectly ok and understandable and will still be welcome here no matter what he\she decides.
Good idea.What your take on this? Should we make one?
Glad you’re here 🩷hey :)
kinda sucky, I'm currently writing tests (ig they're midterms?) only i struggle to study and my ideation's pretty high atm so i can't bring myself to even care about failing them. but in doing so i'm just decreasing my chances of getting to where i want to be in life assuming i don't ctb first
I actually really appreciate the name change. I personally don't know how to feel about participating in recovery threads because i'm honestly far from committed to recovery. but as long as i'm here i would like to feel a little better.
I do think it's a good idea to keep yourself busy, so the intrusive thoughts and feelings don't overwhelm you. and i wish you luck with whatever you're up to, too— and with not letting those intrusive thoughts get the best of you 🫶🏼
You’re more whan welcome here & also writing the vow if you want 🫂Good idea.
Welcome 🫂🌟id like to, lets do it
🫶🏼🤌🏼Welcome, @jar-baby and @bluesoapyskies
Hoping your time here grants you any better feelings, and an openness to be as you are. Wishing you the best.
I’m sorry to hear that dear friend. How are you now? Is it a little better?Hello,
My nerves are somewhat worse, and moving my hands and limbs is difficult. I don't have anxieties that can make my hands twitch, so I want to find ways to stop the twitching temporarily to type.
I feel between a calmness with my perception of the world, and a creeping despair at the deteriorating state of my nerves. Just like typing, as long as I take my time, I will surely get where I have to go. I don't know if it is the calmness or the despair saying that, however.
Take care