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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
255
I don't mean it as a joke. Right now I'm barely capable of taking care of my basic needs without having a mental breakdown. And I have absolutely no motivation to participate in this shit show we call capitalism. I would be motivated to work if I actually got the pay I deserve. Average pay in my country is like 6 dollars per hour. It takes a lot of time and effort to even get an interview and most jobs are terrible and stressful. If I ever get to the point that I will have to find a job to survive, I will see it as a sign to finally hang myself.
 
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ashen knight

ashen knight

Member
Apr 7, 2026
13
What country are you in? This is sh*t
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,125
North Macedonia is even worse. The average pay per hour is even lower.
Like you, I would also rather die than work. I tried working once and while I was working I was ridiculed and shamed for having Asperger's.
 
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SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
245
I think this is happening everywhere around the world. My friends who decided to set off to other countries to study and work are complaining about the job market being absolute shite too.

One is in Canada. He's going back soon. The other is in Netherlands, still fighting. Right now, I'm starting to lose hope on my job hunting journey.

I've been declined and/or ghosted god knows how many times BUT I did find friends while I went to interviews and right now we're forming a group to find jobs. Any job at all as long as there's a guarantee of a salary (preferably minimum wage).

I hope that you get to come across some people to during interviews. If you're fatigued from all the job hunting, you can always stop for a week and just wait for all fo those applications you've filled and uploaded. I do the same. This shit got hella draining.

All of my friends are employed and I'm just... this.

Good luck, champ.
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
255
North Macedonia is even worse. The average pay per hour is even lower.
Like you, I would also rather die than work. I tried working once and while I was working I was ridiculed and shamed for having Asperger's.
I'm asperger too. For us jobs are just lowkey bullying.
 
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coolcow1289

coolcow1289

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Mar 17, 2026
58
I have a job and I'd rather be dead than have a job. So I get it
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,125
I'm asperger too. For us jobs are just lowkey bullying.
It's even worse when some of your "colleagues" are real life bullies that happened to work with you. In my workplace, things got so bad I almost got into a fistfight and I'm a very very peaceful and tolerable person.
 
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lilb0wpeep

Will I ever escape from this nightmare?
Mar 9, 2026
38
Currently waiting to go into work and the anxiety just thinking about is killing me. I want to call in, I want to quit, I want to ctb just so I don't have to go in.
There's not even a really good reason for this feeling today either, I just feel to scared to go in. I don't want to put what little energy I have into this shitty job just to go home and feel bad.
 
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Kanau_Nano

Experienced
Apr 12, 2026
234
I hate needing to act so happy at work with my family with others. I'm not happy at all, but if I show it I make others uncomfortable or get fired. I wish I wasn't like this
 
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aceHardlight

Not even sad, just dead inside
May 1, 2026
16
North Macedonia is even worse. The average pay per hour is even lower.
Like you, I would also rather die than work. I tried working once and while I was working I was ridiculed and shamed for having Asperger's.
I have aspergers too and I can't even work sober... When I worked I was zonked out on opiates and benzos. Looking back this was pretty much enjoyable, I always had enough money for drugs because I had a job and the job didn't bother me because I was always high lol.

As a neurodivergent person you have to be creative.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,125
I have aspergers too and I can't even work sober... When I worked I was zonked out on opiates and benzos. Looking back this was pretty much enjoyable, I always had enough money for drugs because I had a job and the job didn't bother me because I was always high lol.

As a neurodivergent person you have to be creative.
People nowadays (especially ones in my country North Macedonia) are so mean that no amount of benzos or opioids will help you. Imagine people in their 30s and 40s behaving like high school bullies. That's how my colleagues behaved towards me.
 

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