How do I tell my parents that I'm terrible at everything?

[Cauliflour]

They're too nice to me. I have unsatisfactory grades in my GCSEs and A levels and I've got uni soon and I don't want to complete the course only to find out I scraped by, regardless of how much passion and effort I put in. Uni is expensive and I really don't think I'm smart enough to come out the other side with a degree that would be good enough for me to get a job in industry. I'm really debating just ending it here because it's clear that I suck at everything (apart from making ham and cheese toasties...for some reason) and that "hard work" isn't gonna cut it.

You name it, I'm probably bad at it. I play video games so often yet I seem to suck at every genre. How the fuck am I that bad at my special interest? I put in so much effort into my A levels and I got a U for one of them yet via some bullshit I still managed to get into university. I went to a great school for secondary school and only just made it into my college with my grades (which by the way, is a state school, a good state school, but a state school nonetheless). There's probably weed smokers in that college that got in with better grades than mine yet for some reason, they still keep treating me like I'm this gifted child that'll become super successful!

I'm feeling a lot more suicidal right now than I have in a long time. If I end it now then it would spare me the feelings down the line. There are much more talented people my age and I just can't push my ego down enough to accept it, so I should take matters into my own hands for a bit of piece of mind. Problem is that my parents won't understand, even if I do leave a note, and they'll be really depressed if they find me hanging one day. They'll be like one of those parents you see getting interviewed by British news stations, claiming I was brainwashed by this site because they just can't understand their child's motive on a personal level. I can't even self harm good enough, I'm that pathetic.

I can't wait for the day I can stop being me. It's so exhausting having to be stuck as this dreadful person.

 

[brassicasaur]

I feel a similar way about my drawing (in)ability. No matter how I practice, I can't improve. Drawing is my passion and I suck at it. When I die, my mum will probably blame this site, forgetting that being suicidal in the first place is why I'm here.

 

[lastappleonearth]

View attachment 207453They're too nice to me. I have unsatisfactory grades in my GCSEs and A levels and I've got uni soon and I don't want to complete the course only to find out I scraped by, regardless of how much passion and effort I put in. Uni is expensive and I really don't think I'm smart enough to come out the other side with a degree that would be good enough for me to get a job in industry. I'm really debating just ending it here because it's clear that I suck at everything (apart from making ham and cheese toasties...for some reason) and that "hard work" isn't gonna cut it.

You name it, I'm probably bad at it. I play video games so often yet I seem to suck at every genre. How the fuck am I that bad at my special interest? I put in so much effort into my A levels and I got a U for one of them yet via some bullshit I still managed to get into university. I went to a great school for secondary school and only just made it into my college with my grades (which by the way, is a state school, a good state school, but a state school nonetheless). There's probably weed smokers in that college that got in with better grades than mine yet for some reason, they still keep treating me like I'm this gifted child that'll become super successful!

I'm feeling a lot more suicidal right now than I have in a long time. If I end it now then it would spare me the feelings down the line. There are much more talented people my age and I just can't push my ego down enough to accept it, so I should take matters into my own hands for a bit of piece of mind. Problem is that my parents won't understand, even if I do leave a note, and they'll be really depressed if they find me hanging one day. They'll be like one of those parents you see getting interviewed by British news stations, claiming I was brainwashed by this site because they just can't understand their child's motive on a personal level. I can't even self harm good enough, I'm that pathetic.

I can't wait for the day I can stop being me. It's so exhausting having to be stuck as this dreadful person.

Making ham and cheese toasties is a nice skill to have tho, I'm sure they're very tasty. In regards to uni I can relate, but I just chose a dumb degree, am now stuck with it and barely bring myself to do anything these days. You know, you are at least trying despite everything and despite how you are feeling, that's worth a lot imo. It sucks seeing other people your age doing much better and seemingly having a great life, I get that, it nags at me too sometimes.
I wish you all the best and hope that things get better for you