I want to die but It scared me

[Alec345]

Hello I am SHS student and I am very depressed, btw I studied in boarding school so I can't be alone and it stressed me out I really want to die I just scared to do that, future and school made me depressed, it's not about my score but more like the environment my school sucked I hate it and I don't have many friends even tho I am kinda well known, today one of girls told me that I should die. I am to scared to do suicide, I love my family specially my mom I don't want to disappoint her but I want to die but at the same time I also want to experience world I just want to make all of this disappear and life in peace

Also I am ugly , very ugly, short and fat. I rather die than live a life in this ugly body and everything I do I will be judged

 

[miserableforever]

Hello I am SHS student and I am very depressed, btw I studied in boarding school so I can't be alone and it stressed me out I really want to die I just scared to do that, future and school made me depressed, it's not about my score but more like the environment my school sucked I hate it and I don't have many friends even tho I am kinda well known, today one of girls told me that I should die. I am to scared to do suicide, I love my family specially my mom I don't want to disappoint her but I want to die but at the same time I also want to experience world I just want to make all of this disappear and life in peace

Also I am ugly , very ugly, short and fat. I rather die than live a life in this ugly body and everything I do I will be judged

No one should ever tell you to die… it's a choice you have to make yourself, if that's what you even want. I've heard it all before, someone said it to me. The same person that now tries to be close to me again. People can really suck and I'm sorry. I'm sure you're not ugly, no one actually truly is. Ctb is such a final thing, I am struggling with a decision too. Anyway, I hope your head is in a better space right now.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really is so unnecessarily cruel, it's horrible how humans just create so much harm and can be so insensitive. It must be really tiring and awful being trapped in that situation, it really does seem as though there is no real relief from suffering in this world but anyway best wishes.

 

[Arachnid_Antichrist]

Hello I am SHS student and I am very depressed, btw I studied in boarding school so I can't be alone and it stressed me out I really want to die I just scared to do that, future and school made me depressed, it's not about my score but more like the environment my school sucked I hate it and I don't have many friends even tho I am kinda well known, today one of girls told me that I should die. I am to scared to do suicide, I love my family specially my mom I don't want to disappoint her but I want to die but at the same time I also want to experience world I just want to make all of this disappear and life in peace

Also I am ugly , very ugly, short and fat. I rather die than live a life in this ugly body and everything I do I will be judged

I relate to this so much. There are so many things that you say here that are almost identical to my experiences.