too lazy to die

[siphon_hyphen]

I want to die, even when I'm at my best. I know very well it is the most logical decision for me, and would not be an emotion driven decision. I plan to buy SN. But...

I am so, so depressed, that I can't even get myself to do it.

My depression merges with my executive dysfunction so that I'm basically too lazy to get it done. Which is a bit funny to me, I guess! I'm not scared of death, but I'm too lazy to do it. Pretty dumb.

I'll get to it eventually, just pretty annoying in the moment.

 

[dustoff]

relatable
its been 2 years since i last time cleaned my room

 

[unluckysadness]

relatable
its been 2 years since i last time cleaned my room

Same. I almost have Diogenes syndrome. Nobody comes at home so it's okay but it takes me too much energy to clean my apartment. And why should I clean if dirt comes again and again ? This shit never ends...