Help I want ctb, but..

[AlexShiBan07]

I want ctb but... Hey guys! I'm new to this site (about a week) and have already learned a lot. Thanks to this site, I really saw how much shit in this world. And now, looking ahead, I see what a terrible prospect awaits me. My life is already destroyed. I stopped enjoying life and now I treat most of my affairs with apathy. I really, REALLY want to die, but... I'm afraid. I'm very afraid. Recently, when I went to the section with pictures, I saw a man who killed himself by a train. I imagined myself in his place and my heart began to pound! I am afraid of death, because there will be no turning back, but at the same time I crave it so much! Please, help

 

[FuneralCry]

I think those who ctb with less peaceful methods really were so courageous and determined to me, I admire them. But I think it's understandable fearing dying as after all, as humans we are all programmed to survive even if we have awareness that suicide is the most logical option, leaving this world really is so unnecessarily difficult especially as we are cruelly denied the options of peaceful methods like Nembutal.

 

[No_Lxve]

welcome to SS by the way

 

[soontobedone]

I want nothing more than to go to sleep forever. But a friend brought up..what if it's like an endless nightmare you can't wake up from?