etrnllxid
blunt
- Aug 9, 2023
- 55
20…. I was 17 when I encountered this site, I've come a long way since then. Time flies and a constant throughout these blissful years is the solemn feeling of want to be nothing. When I logged in I was blown away by the sudden unfiltered talk of wanting to die I accepted this as I've always felt that but to CTB violently and suddenly? it scared me, but I never thought "did people intentionally want to die like this?"
I only felt anger that people were forced go to such lengths just to find solace, in my pursuit of a peaceful death I found out all that would be considered and heavily restricted and are flat out unavailable. I had never truly felt controlled in my life because I was content playing within the invisible parameters of our world and never pushing the boundaries
This is the only time I set out for the one thing I truly wanted. If there's any wisdom that's come to me with age is that, cruelty is ever present in all facets in the world but this is what they could manage.
I am ready to go ahead and put this into action If u have discord and know about an antiemetic source DM.
Do whatever verification you need to trust me, I've been here a year and was a NEET for that year (Couldn't buy SN from a source MS) still never got a source for antiemetics.
Down to consume anything that will kill me
I only felt anger that people were forced go to such lengths just to find solace, in my pursuit of a peaceful death I found out all that would be considered and heavily restricted and are flat out unavailable. I had never truly felt controlled in my life because I was content playing within the invisible parameters of our world and never pushing the boundaries
This is the only time I set out for the one thing I truly wanted. If there's any wisdom that's come to me with age is that, cruelty is ever present in all facets in the world but this is what they could manage.
I am ready to go ahead and put this into action If u have discord and know about an antiemetic source DM.
Do whatever verification you need to trust me, I've been here a year and was a NEET for that year (Couldn't buy SN from a source MS) still never got a source for antiemetics.
Down to consume anything that will kill me
