• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
onbekend

onbekend

Experienced
Jan 14, 2024
265
Had yet another bad day among a fucking ocean of other bad days. At this point I am truly astonished at how things truly could've gotten worse from last bad day that I had, but they somehow did. I don't understand how life can just get worse and worse as I age, Even the things I used to take comfort in don't satisfy me anymore. I feel like I am a rotting carcass who has to deal with nothing but a lifetime of pain and suffering. Everything I do outside of comfort activities I fucking fail at and life continues to get worse to the point where I am questioning how the fuck it is even possible. Any time I interact with another person I have made a negative impact on them. Every time I make one attempt at improving my life, Three more fucking bad things happen. Life is a boxing match where you have no arms. I'm done.

On rare occasions I think that maybe life is still worth living, that maybe the suicidal thoughts are just the occasional dark thoughts in my head but no. This is how it has to end. I can't do this anymore. I'm going more insane at the fucking minute and I want so desperately to die at this point to put it to a fucking end.
 
  • Aww..
  • Hugs
Reactions: Thanatos, Endofit, R_N and 5 others
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,137
That must be really dreadful and tiring what you are going through, existence really is too cruel and it's horrible how people have to suffer so much. But anyway best wishes.
 
D

DeletedAccount0864

Student
Dec 17, 2023
199
Every time I make one attempt at improving my life, Three more fucking bad things happen. Life is a boxing match where you have no arms. I'm done.
I hear that, brother... I have done so much to try, but it always turns to shit :(
 
  • Love
Reactions: onbekend
SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
My experience, it always gets worse.
 
  • Like
Reactions: onbekend
Unknown21

Unknown21

Enlightened
Apr 25, 2023
1,260
Life just get worse progressively.
 
  • Like
Reactions: onbekend
V

VoidedExistence

Student
Dec 6, 2023
105
My life has also been getting worse and worse but for opposite reasons. My life kept going downhill because I kept doing nothing, everything keeps getting worse and I just keep watching.
 
  • Like
Reactions: onbekend

Similar threads

meiherasayuri
Replies
1
Views
71
Suicide Discussion
bpdscared9
bpdscared9
shaggy_dooo
Replies
16
Views
371
Suicide Discussion
BillyBob
BillyBob
undecidedfool
Replies
0
Views
127
Suicide Discussion
undecidedfool
undecidedfool
nails
Replies
3
Views
113
Suicide Discussion
bl33ding_heart
bl33ding_heart