onbekend
Experienced
- Jan 14, 2024
- 266
Had yet another bad day among a fucking ocean of other bad days. At this point I am truly astonished at how things truly could've gotten worse from last bad day that I had, but they somehow did. I don't understand how life can just get worse and worse as I age, Even the things I used to take comfort in don't satisfy me anymore. I feel like I am a rotting carcass who has to deal with nothing but a lifetime of pain and suffering. Everything I do outside of comfort activities I fucking fail at and life continues to get worse to the point where I am questioning how the fuck it is even possible. Any time I interact with another person I have made a negative impact on them. Every time I make one attempt at improving my life, Three more fucking bad things happen. Life is a boxing match where you have no arms. I'm done.
On rare occasions I think that maybe life is still worth living, that maybe the suicidal thoughts are just the occasional dark thoughts in my head but no. This is how it has to end. I can't do this anymore. I'm going more insane at the fucking minute and I want so desperately to die at this point to put it to a fucking end.
On rare occasions I think that maybe life is still worth living, that maybe the suicidal thoughts are just the occasional dark thoughts in my head but no. This is how it has to end. I can't do this anymore. I'm going more insane at the fucking minute and I want so desperately to die at this point to put it to a fucking end.