irrational impulsive posting . just need someone to care

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i have nobody who cares about me ,
everyone around me treats me like im constant nuisance and bother and im starting to believe it again .

ive been unmedicated for the past three weeks , ive been getting worse and worse and not a day has gone by where i havent thought of my potential suicide

im really giving up at this point
i dont know what to do ,

i dont know if im willing to wait two months to move away to another state

 

[Canto XIII]

ive been unmedicated for the past three weeks

Has that been by your choice?

 

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Has that been by your choice?

no , im still not trusted to have full access to my medication due to previous drug reliance and od

 

[cptsdfugue]

I may not know you personally, but I'm here for you if you want to talk. Before doing anything impulsive I'd suggest getting on your medication if possible again, because suicide's a huge thing you can't take back, it seems like a lot of it stems from how you're not able to get medicine

For now I'd just focus on looking forward to those two months and coping with your thoughts

 

[catscratches]

I may not know you personally, but I'm here for you if you want to talk. Before doing anything impulsive I'd suggest getting on your medication if possible again, because suicide's a huge thing you can't take back, it seems like a lot of it stems from how you're not able to get medicine

For now I'd just focus on looking forward to those two months and coping with your thoughts

ive been trying to get ahold of my medication , but it seems like no matter what i do , how much progress i make , i will never earn the trust again .

but i will definitely try , thank you .

 

[witchcraft]

Personally, I've postponed my own decision in hopes that I will somehow feel better if I could move out on my own. I don't know your situation but it may be worth considering.

 

[Canto XIII]

no , im still not trusted to have full access to my medication due to previous drug reliance and od

Are you under the care of a psychiatrist?

 

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Are you under the care of a psychiatrist?

yes , as well as my parents . although i am of age , which seems stupid . but as long as i am under their roof , i do not have access to my medication on my own . i am planning to have a discussion with both parties , discussing different care arrangements , since i am moving out in september officially .

 

[cptsdfugue]

ive been trying to get ahold of my medication , but it seems like no matter what i do , how much progress i make , i will never earn the trust again .

but i will definitely try , thank you .

You've got this! I believe in you

You making this post asking for help is all the proof you need to believe in yourself :) September's two months away!

 

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You've got this! I believe in you

You making this post asking for help is all the proof you need to believe in yourself :) September's two months away!

thank you !!!

september is the month im moving away to illinois , i think the scenery will heal me .

 

[Canto XIII]

yes , as well as my parents . although i am of age , which seems stupid . but as long as i am under their roof , i do not have access to my medication on my own . i am planning to have a discussion with both parties , discussing different care arrangements , since i am moving out in september officially .

Can't you ask your doctor for an increase in medication, making your symptoms known? I'm sorry if I'm saying dumb stuff, you've probably thought of these things already.

 

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Can't you ask your doctor for an increase in medication, making your symptoms known? I'm sorry if I'm saying dumb stuff, you've probably thought of these things already.

i definitely can !!! i meet with the doctor in another three weeks , so its going to be a while . but i think i can hang on until then :-)

thank you for replying . i was very distraught , but having someone to talk to really helped .

 

[Canto XIII]

i definitely can !!! i meet with the doctor in another three weeks , so its going to be a while . but i think i can hang on until then :-)

thank you for replying . i was very distraught , but having someone to talk to really helped .

I'm so happy we could be of some help!

I've sometimes asked my psychiatrist about medicines stuff by mail or message if it was a period where I was not seeing him. Maybe you could ask for advice this way too. Of course I know doctors can have different arrangements with their patients, so I won't assume you have this possibility too.