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loyalskateboard

loyalskateboard

Specialist
May 4, 2023
336
It should be delivered next week. Hopefully I wasn't scammed. :ahhha:

I'm so glad I (might) not have to go through with partial as my method. SN is my preference and the ability to sit in my bed with music playing is fantastic. It sure beats the cold bathroom floor where there's a disability handle that holds my weight.

I'm starting to draft some letters to my friends/family. I have given myself this year to improve my life but it's May and not looking great. I think there's a weird peace in accepting I probably won't make it. In some ways, at least for me, it's like a terminal illness.

My life has been full of mental illness and pain. I don't think I've had one single good year in my entire life. Even as a baby I was experiencing stress and trauma due to my parents. Never mind being sexually assaulted, stalked my whole childhood, admitted to hospital dozens of times, trying all sorts of meds, different therapies. My brain never had a chance to develop normally. I experienced social isolation as a kid and on top of being homeschooled and autistic my social skills are fucked.

I'm tired. I'm considering making a date for when I ctb sooner than planned. Not imminently but possibly before Christmas. I think I'm just tired of trying.
 
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that_guy2611

that_guy2611

Student
Mar 17, 2018
189
uhh would you mind sending me a message ?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,682
It must be such a relief having the SN and knowing that you can reliably free yourself from this horrible world when the time feels right. I wish you the best with your plans.
 
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Sommeil

Sommeil

dodo
Mar 12, 2023
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It should be delivered next week. Hopefully I wasn't scammed. :ahhha:

I'm so glad I (might) not have to go through with partial as my method. SN is my preference and the ability to sit in my bed with music playing is fantastic. It sure beats the cold bathroom floor where there's a disability handle that holds my weight.

I'm starting to draft some letters to my friends/family. I have given myself this year to improve my life but it's May and not looking great. I think there's a weird peace in accepting I probably won't make it. In some ways, at least for me, it's like a terminal illness.

My life has been full of mental illness and pain. I don't think I've had one single good year in my entire life. Even as a baby I was experiencing stress and trauma due to my parents. Never mind being sexually assaulted, stalked my whole childhood, admitted to hospital dozens of times, trying all sorts of meds, different therapies. My brain never had a chance to develop normally. I experienced social isolation as a kid and on top of being homeschooled and autistic my social skills are fucked.

I'm tired. I'm considering making a date for when I ctb sooner than planned. Not imminently but possibly before Christmas. I think I'm just tired of trying.
Hi loyalskateboard, I want you to know that I really understand the tiredness you describe.
 
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AZcardinals

AZcardinals

Member
May 21, 2023
21
I knows you've gotten a lot requests for you the message them but I'm also trying to find a source. If you could share where you bought yours that would really help
 
ToTheTwillight

ToTheTwillight

Experienced
May 19, 2023
245
Any update on the status of your delivery?
 
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Procrastinator12345

Member
May 26, 2023
21
It should be delivered next week. Hopefully I wasn't scammed. :ahhha:

I'm so glad I (might) not have to go through with partial as my method. SN is my preference and the ability to sit in my bed with music playing is fantastic. It sure beats the cold bathroom floor where there's a disability handle that holds my weight.

I'm starting to draft some letters to my friends/family. I have given myself this year to improve my life but it's May and not looking great. I think there's a weird peace in accepting I probably won't make it. In some ways, at least for me, it's like a terminal illness.

My life has been full of mental illness and pain. I don't think I've had one single good year in my entire life. Even as a baby I was experiencing stress and trauma due to my parents. Never mind being sexually assaulted, stalked my whole childhood, admitted to hospital dozens of times, trying all sorts of meds, different therapies. My brain never had a chance to develop normally. I experienced social isolation as a kid and on top of being homeschooled and autistic my social skills are fucked.

I'm tired. I'm considering making a date for when I ctb sooner than planned. Not imminently but possibly before Christmas. I think I'm just tired of trying.
I am not sure how to send messages to people (possibly because it's disabled because it's a new account), but wondering if you could message me, thanks.
 
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myreasonings

Member
May 26, 2023
9
Similar to other response, I would greatly appreciate it if you could pm.
 

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