Ekim
the healer has the bloodiest hands
- Dec 2, 2025
- 36
I'm jst a high school teen so you might think this post is dumb or that this is too small of a reason to feel this way but I genuinely hate how my country and parents seems to prioritise marks over students' mental health yk I used to be an average student until 5th grade I was actually good at maths then my parents moved to a new city and everything changed I struggled to fit into my new school got physically bullied almost every day, my birthgiver was extremely abusive at that time and my maths teacher used to SA and humiliat me every single day, so that point on I started hating maths
Social media became my genuine comfort zone I stopped caring about my studies and completely distanced myself from maths the years when I should've been learning the basics I ignored the subject entirely but I take full accountability for being a careless kid back then but now I'm paying the price for it but this year I failed maths and at my school if a student fails even one subject they have to repeat the grade so I had to repeat the entire year, ever since 7th grade I've felt completely lost I've isolated myself from everyone and only leave the house to go to school it's been an endless cycle after I failed my father became extremely abusive and insults me every single day constantly reminding me that I don't deserve to be his daughter and that I'm nothing but a failure.
Now I have monthly tests coming up but I can't even solve basic maths problems my father has warned me that if I don't pass this year he'll kill me the pressure is unbearable maths makes me feel so stupid and hopeless that sometimes I just feel like killing myself
Social media became my genuine comfort zone I stopped caring about my studies and completely distanced myself from maths the years when I should've been learning the basics I ignored the subject entirely but I take full accountability for being a careless kid back then but now I'm paying the price for it but this year I failed maths and at my school if a student fails even one subject they have to repeat the grade so I had to repeat the entire year, ever since 7th grade I've felt completely lost I've isolated myself from everyone and only leave the house to go to school it's been an endless cycle after I failed my father became extremely abusive and insults me every single day constantly reminding me that I don't deserve to be his daughter and that I'm nothing but a failure.
Now I have monthly tests coming up but I can't even solve basic maths problems my father has warned me that if I don't pass this year he'll kill me the pressure is unbearable maths makes me feel so stupid and hopeless that sometimes I just feel like killing myself
