Love makes me wanna ctb

[SeldomSad]

The way I imagined love all my life has been way too far from reality. My family was so poor and strict I was not allowed to leave home anywhere other than school for 19 years, no friends, no interaction with males other than my dad and brothers since my school was only for girls. I think this lack of information made other sources like novels and movies dictate the way I viewed the topic of love. I used to think that love is this feeling two people wanna experience forever till they die, miserable or happy, merged into one. But all I'm seeing is people replacing eachother like it's no big deal. I'm being replaced all the time like it's no big deal and it's so hard for me to accept reality even at 25. I can't go through another heart break and I can't stay alone. I just wanna be gone and unable to feel a thing.

 

[50/50]

The way I imagined love all my life has been way too far from reality. My family was so poor and strict I was not allowed to leave home anywhere other than school for 19 years, no friends, no interaction with males other than my dad and brothers since my school was only for girls. I think this lack of information made other sources like novels and movies dictate the way I viewed the topic of love. I used to think that love is this feeling two people wanna experience forever till they die, miserable or happy, merged into one. But all I'm seeing is people replacing eachother like it's no big deal. I'm being replaced all the time like it's no big deal and it's so hard for me to accept reality even at 25. I can't go through another heart break and I can't stay alone. I just wanna be gone and unable to feel a thing.

You just got with bad guys

 

[SeldomSad]

You just got with bad guys

They're not even bad, I just expected (and still do) a love beyond life itself.

 

[RosieKim]

The way I imagined love all my life has been way too far from reality. My family was so poor and strict I was not allowed to leave home anywhere other than school for 19 years, no friends, no interaction with males other than my dad and brothers since my school was only for girls. I think this lack of information made other sources like novels and movies dictate the way I viewed the topic of love. I used to think that love is this feeling two people wanna experience forever till they die, miserable or happy, merged into one. But all I'm seeing is people replacing eachother like it's no big deal. I'm being replaced all the time like it's no big deal and it's so hard for me to accept reality even at 25. I can't go through another heart break and I can't stay alone. I just wanna be gone and unable to feel a thing.

yeah i get it. i felt kinda closed off and sheltered my whole life too in a way. and feel like all i ever wanted was to be loved but couldn't be loved the way i love