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honeydippin

honeydippin

waifu4laifu
Jul 28, 2026
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me and my boyfriend have been struggling for years
I wonder if its really smart for both of us to go at the same time would one of our loved ones blame the other

hes very vocal about wanting to die so have I
but is this love that we are encouraging eachother to do somrthing that will result to us maybe never seeing eachother again
whats the aftermath of all of this

I dont want to hurt his family as much as I dont wanna hurt mine tho I believe my family dont really care about what I will do but I know his family will
 
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I turned and ran / To save a life I didn't have
Jun 14, 2026
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It's all up to you. personally, I'd hate to be alone on the night of my death. I'd spend the night drinking and having fun with a friend of mine before leaving and ctbing. If you also don't want to be alone, then it's a great idea. be with the person you love. Even if not, it can be nice to spend your final moments with the one you love. All up to you, my friend. There's always been something poetic and profoundly beautiful about double suicide to me, too. Love and peace, mate:heart:
 
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dum spiro spero—take it as it comes
Nov 30, 2024
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what do you feel is making each of you suicidal? ❤️

love is very deep; i think it is possible for your love and acts to make each other's lives livable, and to grow towards healing together, step by step 🫂🫂

but is this love that we are encouraging eachother to do somrthing that will result to us maybe never seeing eachother again
whats the aftermath of all of this
so wisely worded <3<3

it doesn't have to end with suicide <3🤗 it can continue with gradual healing too ^^ 💖🫂
 
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Yeah, I don't get it (sorry!). If you're in love, why would you want to lose each other?

Also, depending on your method… if one of you successfully CTB's & the other wakes up next to them, or in the hospital… it could be a pretty bad situation for you (or him) on every imaginable level.
 
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ovaltinee99

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Nov 9, 2020
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If only one of you goes by suicide it still results in not seeing each other so on that point it doesn't matter whether you do it on your own or together.

Is it love? Life is more complex than that. There are so many people who love each other genuinely but find that they can't pay the bills or love doesn't remove their partner's severe depression or other mental illness. Life is tough and we're all just human. If you have it in you, try to recover. But love is also recognising when your loved one has had enough.

For someone like me who is exhausted, it would be my dream to go with my other half as they're the main reason I'm here anymore.
 
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waifu4laifu
Jul 28, 2026
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It's all up to you. personally, I'd hate to be alone on the night of my death. I'd spend the night drinking and having fun with a friend of mine before leaving and ctbing. If you also don't want to be alone, then it's a great idea. be with the person you love. Even if not, it can be nice to spend your final moments with the one you love. All up to you, my friend. There's always been something poetic and profoundly beautiful about double suicide to me, too. Love and peace, mate:heart:
I cant thank you enough, this kinda helped how hesitated I felt abt the whole thing.. prompts to you ! ! ! much love from me and my boyfriend
If only one of you goes by suicide it still results in not seeing each other so on that point it doesn't matter whether you do it on your own or together.

Is it love? Life is more complex than that. There are so many people who love each other genuinely but find that they can't pay the bills or love doesn't remove their partner's severe depression or other mental illness. Life is tough and we're all just human. If you have it in you, try to recover. But love is also recognising when your loved one has had enough.

For someone like me who is exhausted, it would be my dream to go with my other half as they're the main reason I'm here anymore.
I resonate with this deeply thank you so much
Yeah, I don't get it (sorry!). If you're in love, why would you want to lose each other?

Also, depending on your method… if one of you successfully CTB's & the other wakes up next to them, or in the hospital… it could be a pretty bad situation for you (or him) on every imaginable level.
its more that we both cant really live on this earth , we love eachother but we are very much both ill we just cant be at peace how much we try to make things work in life im scared to proceed with what I intend to do with him because basically what if we never see eachother again in the confused conflicted relationship on the afterlife and what even happens in the afterlife

I could never ctb without him it would damage him the way its reversed why us doing it together is not only symbolic but will find us both peace the only issue i have is thr afterlife in question, our loved ones opinions and the aftermath that I know ill never see
what do you feel is making each of you suicidal? ❤️

love is very deep; i think it is possible for your love and acts to make each other's lives livable, and to grow towards healing together, step by step 🫂🫂


so wisely worded <3<3

it doesn't have to end with suicide <3🤗 it can continue with gradual healing too ^^ 💖🫂
its a bit complicated why we are both suicidal
as it contributes how we both grew up, how we operated and what we are surrounded in that contributed to both of us being mentally ill and basically fucked, one of us is gonna end it before the other so why planning to do it together is a bit special to me

plus I find it something so special to do

thank you for your support
 
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