Discussion I honestly don't know what to do with my life.

[rottenandabused]

I've spent an entire year trying to get into med school. Tried the EXANI-II twice (this test done in which the top 60 best applicants get inside college), and another two times a semester of the same dynamic. Failed all four.

I don't like any other career. I never did well in high schools physics, math, accounting.
But I really want this career. I want all the stress and frustration that comes with it, and I know just how fucked up every next level is. When is it gonna be my turn?
And I see most if not all of my friends got in and it just makes me feel left behind. Like I'm wasting my life and time.
I don't have anything else going on in life. I don't have friends or a job, and I've lost all my energy for the simplest of things. I'm asleep most of the day, for the past week or two I only wash my hair and my armpits, and I lost interest in my hobbies.

So I'm kinda turning for another plan in my life, which is catching the bus.
I feel as if, maybe the reason my life is so pathetic right now it's because Im not supposed to be here. My time has passed a long time ago, like a dead living body.

Im posting this here to see if any of you could help me choose, in either taking another chance at the next semester or end it all altogether

 

[bagel12]

im sorry to hear that you didnt get into medical school :( you sound passionate about this career and it must be upsetting to keep encountering barriers. with the sleeping duirng the day, not showering, losing interest in hobbies, etc, it sounds like you are experiencing a depressive episode due to the exam results, which is completely understandable. medical school is difficult to get into, it is not a personal failing.

personally, i think it is worth trying again to get into a medical career, and maybe consider ones that dont require med school as a backup. the medical field would benefit a lot from more healthcare workers who are passionate about their work and who understand mental health and understand why people ctb. you could help a lot of people, and it would be an enjoyable career for you, so i think it is worth it. but of course, this is just my opinion, it is your choice to make.

can you identify why you failed the exam? and is it possible that there are underlying conditions that affected your ability to learn the material or perform well on the exam? i used to fail exams often until i was diagnosed with adhd, it turns out i just needed medication and accommodations on exams to succeed.

what do you like about this career path, and is there another career in the medical field that you could try that doesn't require medical school? for example, i see a physician's assistant for checkups instead of a doctor. a physician's assistant doesnt go to med school but they still see patients and diagnose people. i know someone else who chose to be an emergency room nurse and it is a well paying and very exciting job for them, no medical school required.

 

[LostHighway]

I read that the rejection rate is 70% to 90%, so you're not alone. Imagine all those people ending their lives. There are other jobs that cause stress and frustration, and help others. There's a strong need for paramedics for example You can't get more stressful and noble than that. the more you train and the more experience you accrue, you can get into the role of a travel paramedic, flight paramedic, yacht medic, etc. And maybe you could occasionally volunteer with an organization like this. https://internationalmedicalrelief.org/about-us/global-impact/

If you don't want to be a paramedic, consider nursing or becoming a CNA.

Please don't give up your precious life because you failed the test. For whatever reason, it's not for you. It does not mean that you're a failure as a person.

 

[rottenandabused]

im sorry to hear that you didnt get into medical school :( you sound passionate about this career and it must be upsetting to keep encountering barriers. with the sleeping duirng the day, not showering, losing interest in hobbies, etc, it sounds like you are experiencing a depressive episode due to the exam results, which is completely understandable. medical school is difficult to get into, it is not a personal failing.

personally, i think it is worth trying again to get into a medical career, and maybe consider ones that dont require med school as a backup. the medical field would benefit a lot from more healthcare workers who are passionate about their work and who understand mental health and understand why people ctb. you could help a lot of people, and it would be an enjoyable career for you, so i think it is worth it. but of course, this is just my opinion, it is your choice to make.

can you identify why you failed the exam? and is it possible that there are underlying conditions that affected your ability to learn the material or perform well on the exam? i used to fail exams often until i was diagnosed with adhd, it turns out i just needed medication and accommodations on exams to succeed.

what do you like about this career path, and is there another career in the medical field that you could try that doesn't require medical school? for example, i see a physician's assistant for checkups instead of a doctor. a physician's assistant doesnt go to med school but they still see patients and diagnose people. i know someone else who chose to be an emergency room nurse and it is a well paying and very exciting job for them, no medical school required.

Well, looking logistically at it, the first time I went through a semester I was in a really rough patch in my personal life, and it is no secret that the EXANI-II lists only pass certain people who paid for it... At least in this specific university (there are no other unis in my state).
What I love most is learning about the human body, and I definitely want a surgical specialty...

I guess I'll try another semester. I'm young and i know that this career will take a lot of time.

 

[bagel12]

Well, looking logistically at it, the first time I went through a semester I was in a really rough patch in my personal life, and it is no secret that the EXANI-II lists only pass certain people who paid for it... At least in this specific university (there are no other unis in my state).
What I love most is learning about the human body, and I definitely want a surgical specialty...

I guess I'll try another semester. I'm young and i know that this career will take a lot of time.

that makes a lot of sense, i also struggled the most in school when i was going through a difficult time in my personal life, but when things got better for me i was able to perform better. some of my friends were able to take a semester off to focus on improving their mental health or gain experience in their field, if you go through another rough patch, would that be an option?

people have to pay to pass the exam, that's crazy! that sounds very corrupt and frustrating

surgery sounds like a cool specialty, do you know what kind of surgical specialty you'd like or you're still deciding? i watched a brain surgery documentary a while ago, it looked awesome. their knowledge and skill is incredible, it's like they're engineers of the human body. my hands are way too shaky for that though haha

someone in my family started med school in their 30s and they are a successful doctor today, and you have the benefit of youth on your side. i think it is worth another try!