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emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
136
i'm so selfish. i always want to have friends but every time they end up leaving me because of something that was entirely my fault. i'm tired of hurting people, but i'm tired of being hurt. i'm tired of being alone. i'm tired of messing everything up.

i don't think i've ever felt this empty and depressed before, it's probably the worst it has ever been right now. i feel so empty. there is nothing going right, other than the fact that i have a friend for once. but i'm eventually going to ruin it. i'm going to eventually hurt them. and it's going to hurt 10x more than last time. maybe when that day comes, i'll finally have the courage to disappear.
 
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hikaru13

hikaru13

memento mori
Jul 4, 2024
62
walking on eggshells to prevent it
There will be friends that will accept you for who you are and that you won't have to appease just for them to stay. I'm not just trying to comfort you, but those people will come to you when you least expect it.

Maybe the constant fear of losing them is limiting you from expressing yourself properly :(
 

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