hey guys,
im trying to figure out the best way to end things. im planning on doing it friday night at the park behind the trees. but im worried someone may find my body becuase of all the cameras on the way there, and that my method may not be successful. I have a .22 rifle that sometimes jams but i figured on to two bullets could work if it doesnt jam. i was thinking i could put the barrel in my mouth and just point up but i don wanna mess up. is there a cheap option like the nitrate stuff? i dont want to be in too much pain unless im going to actually die i just want it to be quick fast and cheap. i really dont want to die but i feel like my life isnt going to get any better than has been, and that i have no other option. canno restart everything from scratch. i never planned to live past my 21st birthday, i was gonna kill myself at midnight but i didnt. now i regret it. please let me know what i should do this is really weighing heavily on me the pressure is on really bad right now and death is my only escape.
my dad has been wanting me to come back home but e kicked me out it doesnt make sense. i dont see my life getting any better at home ive been staying with a friend and i think his moms selling her house. i dont want to be a burden anymore so thats why i feel that way in short. not that i am, i just dont wanna keep feeling like this.
ive just purchased this sodium nitrite im wondering if i can use this method to ctb?
it should arrive tommorrow so ill probablly make my attempt then clean my room and just dip idk if i can say goodbye to anyone it might make tear up
it should arrive tommorrow so ill probablly make my attempt then clean my room and just dip idk if i can say goodbye to anyone it might make tear up
im trying to figure out the best way to end things. im planning on doing it friday night at the park behind the trees. but im worried someone may find my body becuase of all the cameras on the way there, and that my method may not be successful. I have a .22 rifle that sometimes jams but i figured on to two bullets could work if it doesnt jam. i was thinking i could put the barrel in my mouth and just point up but i don wanna mess up. is there a cheap option like the nitrate stuff? i dont want to be in too much pain unless im going to actually die i just want it to be quick fast and cheap. i really dont want to die but i feel like my life isnt going to get any better than has been, and that i have no other option. canno restart everything from scratch. i never planned to live past my 21st birthday, i was gonna kill myself at midnight but i didnt. now i regret it. please let me know what i should do this is really weighing heavily on me the pressure is on really bad right now and death is my only escape.
my dad has been wanting me to come back home but e kicked me out it doesnt make sense. i dont see my life getting any better at home ive been staying with a friend and i think his moms selling her house. i dont want to be a burden anymore so thats why i feel that way in short. not that i am, i just dont wanna keep feeling like this.
ive just purchased this sodium nitrite im wondering if i can use this method to ctb?
it should arrive tommorrow so ill probablly make my attempt then clean my room and just dip idk if i can say goodbye to anyone it might make tear up
it should arrive tommorrow so ill probablly make my attempt then clean my room and just dip idk if i can say goodbye to anyone it might make tear up
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