How do I be suicidal quietly

[le-pendu]

I want to get rid of the need for people to know im gone. Not deactivate my accounts not let anyone know not react in any noticeable way. Just how do I control it in the heat of the moment. I dont want anyone to notice im unreachable. I need to make sure no one knows I feel this way.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I want to get rid of the need for people to know im gone. Not deactivate my accounts not let anyone know not react in any noticeable way. Just how do I control it in the heat of the moment. I dont want anyone to notice im unreachable. I need to make sure no one knows I feel this way.

I've never told anyone I know in real life tbh, but it's not that easy to suppress. I mean sooner or later ppl are prob gonna notice that something's off

 

[le-pendu]

I've never told anyone I know in real life tbh, but it's not that easy to suppress. I mean sooner or later ppl are prob gonna notice that something's off

I just don't want anyone to realize I feel bad. I used to be really good at it. No one knew until I tried. But after so many times and being stuck in an abusive relationship where, I felt liek my only way out was killing myself or she told me she'd kill herself, I just have a hard time not deleting things. I do really, really not tell anyone what's really going on anymore. I don't even pray about it anymore. At least I try not to pray about it. But I don't tell anyone I'm suicidal anymore. But I deactivated my accounts and everything the other night because I didn't want anyone to be able to reach me. I vented about it in an old channel I felt like no one would see which was a big mistake but I deleted it. Just felt like I wanted to explain why I was making that decision but I deleted it. The only thing I didnt disable was my discord because if It didn't work, I wouldn't have access to any of my writ8ng anymore. But friend noticed I deactivated things. I don't want anyone to notice I'm not feeling well. I just don't want anyone to know. I'm so embarrassed and I should be.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I just don't want anyone to realize I feel bad. I used to be really good at it. No one knew until I tried. But after so many times and being stuck in an abusive relationship where, I felt liek my only way out was killing myself or she told me she'd kill herself, I just have a hard time not deleting things. I do really, really not tell anyone what's really going on anymore. I don't even pray about it anymore. At least I try not to pray about it. But I don't tell anyone I'm suicidal anymore. But I deactivated my accounts and everything the other night because I didn't want anyone to be able to reach me. I vented about it in an old channel I felt like no one would see which was a big mistake but I deleted it. Just felt like I wanted to explain why I was making that decision but I deleted it. The only thing I didnt disable was my discord because if It didn't work, I wouldn't have access to any of my writ8ng anymore. But friend noticed I deactivated things. I don't want anyone to notice I'm not feeling well. I just don't want anyone to know. I'm so embarrassed and I should be.

I can relate in a way, I also had a girl threaten me with killing herself if I did or didn't do sth specific, it's fucked up to do that so someone u supposedly love. I also don't really tell anyone how I feel, so I unfortunately haven't got any advice for you. I just hope it someday gets better for you

 

[le-pendu]

I can relate in a way, I also had a girl threaten me with killing herself if I did or didn't do sth specific, it's fucked up to do that so someone u supposedly love. I also don't really tell anyone how I feel, so I unfortunately haven't got any advice for you. I just hope it someday gets better for you

I just dont want to be like her. If im gone I dont want anyone to know