wish i could hire someone to kill me

[jippiapple]

i wish i could have someone shoot them or something. but then it would be weird because what if they hurt other people. i was thinking about ctb by cop but dont want to be on the news lol. has anyone here tried getting HIV/AIDS on purpose to ctb

im pretty sure ill use the charcoal method soon. hows everyone else doing
damn aids is way too long and painful actually

 

[ctb_warrior]

i wish i could have someone shoot them or something. but then it would be weird because what if they hurt other people. i was thinking about ctb by cop but dont want to be on the news lol. has anyone here tried getting HIV/AIDS on purpose to ctb

im pretty sure ill use the charcoal method soon. hows everyone else doing
damn aids is way too long and painful actually

AIDS is actually a tough and long way to ctb.
I also have charcoal method on my mind because of the availability of materials that are required for it . Make sure you have CO meter to ensure the level of CO is sufficient enough to ctb..

 

[SoulGazerX]

I've heard death by aids is a very slow and painful death but maybe it would feel better with a infected partner dying alongside you? Some people say suicide by cop is unethical but who cares about ethics when you want to ctb.

 

[jippiapple]

AIDS is actually a tough and long way to ctb.
I also have charcoal method on my mind because of the availability of materials that are required for it . Make sure you have CO meter to ensure the level of CO is sufficient enough to ctb..

yeah its terrible!!
i dont think ill be able to buy a CO meter tho. i was thnking of just burning a ton (like maybe 12 kg of charcoal) and hoping it works.... what do you think, is a meter totally necessary ?

I've heard death by aids is a very slow and painful death but maybe it would feel better with a infected partner dying alongside you? Some people say suicide by cop is unethical but who cares about ethics when you want to ctb.

tragic lol but true. yeah it wouldnt be nice for the cop.

 

[ctb_warrior]

yeah its terrible!!
i dont think ill be able to buy a CO meter tho. i was thnking of just burning a ton (like maybe 12 kg of charcoal) and hoping it works.... what do you think, is a meter totally necessary ?

12kg of charcoal, i think that is too good amount. It also depends how small is the area.
CO meter helps you have the surety, but yeah, it's pretty costly

 

[jippiapple]

ahhhh i want one. thank you for the advice

 

[SilentNight1998]

I used to think about cbt by cop, mostly when I was between 16 and 24 (I'm 28 now). I hadn't really considered how that would impact the cop because I couldn't really see beyond the pain I feel.

I've been to this private mental health ward many times over the years for depression and they take a lot of emergency responders that have PTSD. One of the guys there told me his story and it completely put me off attempting it. He was a cop and he had someone try and cbt by cop and it left him with PTSD even though he managed to deesculate the situation and he said probably won't ever return to the field. He didn't want to kill someone (particularly who is struggling with their mental health) and he didn't want to leave his kids without a father if things esculated. It made me sad honestly because he was really nice and was clearly in the police for the right reasons which is sad because we need more cops that have empathy for people who are struggling and awareness of mental health.

 

[ctb_warrior]

ahhhh i want one. thank you for the advice

Yeah it's good to have one if you can..
As such you are having 12kg of charcoal which should be more than enough.. Most ppl use 1/3rd of that amount as a lot of charcoal can create lot of heat that may be unbearable. Plan well and you'll be good on your journey to peace
It's my pleasure Happy to help

 

[jippiapple]

wow yeah, i thought ab ctb by cop probably around two years ago but abandoned it because of that, but its just something that has been on my mind because of how annoyed i am that i cant get a gun myself.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I used to think about cbt by cop, mostly when I was between 16 and 24 (I'm 28 now). I hadn't really considered how that would impact the cop because I couldn't really see beyond the pain I feel.

I've been to this private mental health ward many times over the years for depression and they take a lot of emergency responders that have PTSD. One of the guys there told me his story and it completely put me off attempting it. He was a cop and he had someone try and cbt by cop and it left him with PTSD even though he managed to deesculate the situation and he said probably won't ever return to the field. He didn't want to kill someone (particularly who is struggling with their mental health) and he didn't want to leave his kids without a father if things esculated. It made me sad honestly because he was really nice and was clearly in the police for the right reasons which is sad because we need more cops that have empathy for people who are struggling and awareness of mental health.

It's really sad to hear his story. We actually need such cops who understand mental health

 

[tomame]

SCREAMING you sound like me, i tried posting an ad online for someone to do this but the only guy that responded before my ad was flagged lived too far away. and yes AIDS or something would take terribly too long

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I wish it were legal for me to hire someone to shoot me in the head. it's painless instant lights out

1. it's much more reliable as someone else can take multiple shots and can make sure im dead . if I shoot myself i can go unconscious and remain alive with brain damage unable to take a 2nd shot at my head.
2. it's very difficult to get me to even shoot myself. much easier to pay someone to do it. I have a rifle and shotgun but haven't been able to shoot myself yet

but I can't because they made that a crime even though it doesn't affect anyone except me and the assister but both of us voluntarily want to do it. no one is forced

"suicide assisting service gun method . guaranteed way out of extreme pain or suffering 5 stars out of 5"

I have different beliefs than other humans .

there is no connection between me and any other human. I don't have to explain any action i do that only affects me or another who voluntarily agrees with a transaction and doesn't affect anyone else except those who mutually consented

nobody even here would understand anyway why I want suicide asap. I tried to explain pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine: no one even understands this. most humans aren't even aware they are going to die ( do they act that way?). or how fast time passes .

I don't see why there is a connection between me and government monsters. why can they tell me what I do with my own body .and why does everyone accept it and more injustices

 

[jippiapple]

SCREAMING you sound like me, i tried posting an ad online for someone to do this but the only guy that responded before my ad was flagged lived too far away. and yes AIDS or something would take terribly too long

hahha my twin. great minds think alike lmaooo

I wish it were legal for me to hire someone to shoot me in the head. it's painless instant lights out

1. it's much more reliable as someone else can take multiple shots and can make sure im dead . if I shoot myself i can go unconscious and remain alive with brain damage unable to take a 2nd shot at my head.
2. it's very difficult to get me to even shoot myself. much easier to pay someone to do it. I have a rifle and shotgun but haven't been able to shoot myself yet

but I can't because they made that a crime even though it doesn't affect anyone except me and the assister but both of us voluntarily want to do it. no one is forced

"suicide assisting service gun method . guaranteed way out of extreme pain or suffering 5 stars out of 5"

I have different beliefs than other humans .

there is no connection between me and any other human. I don't have to explain any action i do that only affects me or another who voluntarily agrees with a transaction and doesn't affect anyone else except those who mutually consented

nobody even here would understand anyway why I want suicide asap. I tried to explain pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine: no one even understands this. most humans aren't even aware they are going to die ( do they act that way?). or how fast time passes .

I don't see why there is a connection between me and government monsters. why can they tell me what I do with my own body .and why does everyone accept it and more injustices

same, if i did it myself id be so scared to hit the wrong place and turn into a vegetable. yeah, i dont feel like we should even have to explain ourselves. wish euthanasia was accessible. :( sending hugs

I wish it were legal for me to hire someone to shoot me in the head. it's painless instant lights out

1. it's much more reliable as someone else can take multiple shots and can make sure im dead . if I shoot myself i can go unconscious and remain alive with brain damage unable to take a 2nd shot at my head.
2. it's very difficult to get me to even shoot myself. much easier to pay someone to do it. I have a rifle and shotgun but haven't been able to shoot myself yet

but I can't because they made that a crime even though it doesn't affect anyone except me and the assister but both of us voluntarily want to do it. no one is forced

"suicide assisting service gun method . guaranteed way out of extreme pain or suffering 5 stars out of 5"

I have different beliefs than other humans .

there is no connection between me and any other human. I don't have to explain any action i do that only affects me or another who voluntarily agrees with a transaction and doesn't affect anyone else except those who mutually consented

nobody even here would understand anyway why I want suicide asap. I tried to explain pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine: no one even understands this. most humans aren't even aware they are going to die ( do they act that way?). or how fast time passes .

I don't see why there is a connection between me and government monsters. why can they tell me what I do with my own body .and why does everyone accept it and more injustices

same, if i did it myself id be so scared to hit the wrong place and turn into a vegetable. yeah, i dont feel like we should even have to explain ourselves. wish euthanasia was accessible. :( sending hugs

 

[TJT]

i wish i could have someone shoot them or something. but then it would be weird because what if they hurt other people. i was thinking about ctb by cop but dont want to be on the news lol. has anyone here tried getting HIV/AIDS on purpose to ctb

im pretty sure ill use the charcoal method soon. hows everyone else doing
damn aids is way too long and painful actually

The thought has crossed my mind as well. But theoretically even if you hired someone to murder you, no guarantees they'd do it in the way you wished. In fact, for the kind of person being okay with murdering another for money there's a decent chance they'd not follow quick/painless instructions and it'll be much darker and slower than you initially imagined. Whereas if you do it to yourself it'll be far more accurate and you're in control.

Although another user here has a status that's something like "Extreme pain is a billion times more painful than people expect." That is a valid point that's worth stopping and considering when thinking about gunshot methods etc.

 

[kirillbledny]

If a masochist can find a sadist online to participate in whatever they wanna participate in, I should be allowed to find someone who wants to kill to kill me. Sign a contract and all that, both of us benefit... There's no downside when we both consent

 

[pleaseletmeleave]

Ugh I wish. Would be so much easier. If anyone finds a legit hitman for hire please let me know