I feel like my life path is to CTB

[jakelonely]

Maybe not today
Maybe not tomorrow
But one day when it all falls apart I'll finally get the courage to leave
I just want to be at peace

 

[ginko0]

Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but soon and for the rest of my life.

 

[likeblueberries]

This is exactly how I feel and how I've felt since like 11 or 12.
I used to think the feeling would pass but it never did.
I have done a good job at not letting my life fall apart completely but it is so hard staying motivated and positive when deep inside I just want to end it all and don't even consider it that extreme. I don't think I'll be at peace after death but just nothingness would be better than whatever my life is.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I just want some peace as well, all I want is true permanent peace from the dreadful, terrible existence that has only ever caused me to suffer, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[LifeIsASadist]

Same

I am so conflicted whether to CTB by next month or keep pushing and wait until I graduate college and see if I can land the career I want with my degree.