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pedro3211

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I'd imagine you'd be super nervous and anxious when doing any attempt for any method eg. Racing heart/sweating etc. I just took my SN out of the box to have a look at it and my heart was racing, maybe I'm a pussy but idk if I have the courage to drink it.
 
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hdead

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I'd imagine you'd be super nervous and anxious when doing any attempt for any method eg. Racing heart/sweating etc. I just took my SN out of the box to have a look at it and my heart was racing, maybe I'm a pussy but idk if I have the courage to drink it.
I've had a similar feeling when looking at my collection of pills. When the reality hits it's a different ballgame. Having it brings a sense of peace and patience but the actual 'going for it' still feels a bit scary. But there will come a time, I believe. Once you're ready you're ready. Until then you're not. I do think biology will not really change though, SI will always be something that needs to be overcome.
 
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I've had a similar feeling when looking at my collection of pills. When the reality hits it's a different ballgame. Having it brings a sense of peace and patience but the actual 'going for it' still feels a bit scary. But there will come a time, I believe. Once you're ready you're ready. Until then you're not. I do think biology will not really change though, SI will always be something that needs to be overcome.
I think I read someone here say that their SI wouldn't let them swallow their SN. Do you think that's possible?
 
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I think I read someone here say that their SI wouldn't let them swallow their SN. Do you think that's possible?
For sure I think it's possible. I don't think I'd be able to right now.
 
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Waking up alive was painful and knowing I did not succeed made me feel worse than a failure
 
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My first attempt was drowning and i didn't know how painful it was until i did further research. I still did my favorite things 2 days prior to the date and didnt take any meds while going into the water. Unfortunately or rathe the opposite the water isnt deep enough to submerge my whole body and someone pulled me out of the water. Not knowing how bad drowning can feel i felt a mixture of peace and nervousness but not as scared like with SN which is my current option.
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I think I read someone here say that their SI wouldn't let them swallow their SN. Do you think that's possible?
Possible, some can't drink the whole solution. Which is why the protocol recommends 50-100 ml water 50-70 is probably ideal so you can drink it in one gulp
 
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My first attempt was drowning and i didn't know how painful it was until i did further research. I still did my favorite things 2 days prior to the date and didnt take any meds while going into the water. Unfortunately or rathe the opposite the water isnt deep enough to submerge my whole body and someone pulled me out of the water. Not knowing how bad drowning can feel i felt a mixture of peace and nervousness but not as scared like with SN which is my current option.

Possible, some can't drink the whole solution. Which is why the protocol recommends 50-100 ml water 50-70 is probably ideal so you can drink it in one gulp
Thanks for clearing that up, for some reason I thought it was 500mls of water
Thanks for clearing that up, for some reason I thought it was 500mls of water
I'd probably have to drink some vodka to pluck up the courage, I'm aware that increases the likelihood of vomiting but if I do drink a small amount on an empty stomach hopefully I'll be ok, I'll take my anti emetics too of course
 

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