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RandomUsername1

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Hello, I am new to this site. What does SN stand for? And what is CTB? I'm mostly just looking for different low pain/painless methods of suicide. I have ADHD and a prescription for methylphenidate. How much would be needed to kill you? Like I've already looked only I once took like 120 mg of them and mixed it alcohol (not too much because I ran out) but I didn't die and my heart was only racing. After a few hours, I was completely fine. Also what does an OD on methylphenidate feel like? Is it going to be extremely painful? Or is it low risk to kill you and I'll just live the rest of my life with liver damage? Are there any other methods to go out quick and low pain? Something accessible, nothing that's too difficult to obtain. I don't want anyone to find out.
 
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RandomUsername1

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I should also note that I'm 5'2 and 113 pounds.
 
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What does SN stand for? And what is CTB?
SN stands for Sodium Nitrite (not Sodium Nitrate). After N (Nembutal) became harder to find, people switched to SN, which is more available, but less peaceful and reliable. Many places have tightened regulations (including the US, which is where I'm guessing you live), though, so it's not really worth it imo. If you're dead set on ODing on something, SN is better than prescription meds. CTB stands for Catch The Bus or Cease To Breathe, and it means to kill yourself.

Here's the guide for new members:
 
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RandomUsername1

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Thank you, this was actually very helpful. Pills are really the only method I know of. So I'm kinda outta luck. I'll just have to keep searching.
 
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Thank you, this was actually very helpful. Pills are really the only method I know of. So I'm kinda outta luck. I'll just have to keep searching.
Please feel free to also look at recovery areas here, I hope you can find a different way out of your situation than suicide ;(
 
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RandomUsername1

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Please feel free to also look at recovery areas here, I hope you can find a different way out of your situation than suicide ;(
Thank you, I really appreciate all the comments I've gotten so far. I don't know if I should commit suicide because I have such potential. I've just been feeling kinda down lately and I always want to have a plan just in case.
SN stands for Sodium Nitrite (not Sodium Nitrate). After N (Nembutal) became harder to find, people switched to SN, which is more available, but less peaceful and reliable. Many places have tightened regulations (including the US, which is where I'm guessing you live), though, so it's not really worth it imo. If you're dead set on ODing on something, SN is better than prescription meds. CTB stands for Catch The Bus or Cease To Breathe, and it means to kill yourself.

Here's the guide for new members:
Thank you so much for educating me and providing links. I really do appreciate it. I don't wanna do anything dumb and end up alive but severely disabled.
SN stands for Sodium Nitrite (not Sodium Nitrate). After N (Nembutal) became harder to find, people switched to SN, which is more available, but less peaceful and reliable. Many places have tightened regulations (including the US, which is where I'm guessing you live), though, so it's not really worth it imo. If you're dead set on ODing on something, SN is better than prescription meds. CTB stands for Catch The Bus or Cease To Breathe, and it means to kill yourself.

Here's the guide for new members:
Thank you so much for educating me and providing links. I really do appreciate it. I don't wanna do anything dumb and end up alive but severely disabled.
 
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