Venting I can't relate to anyone

[EmptyHeaded]

There's never been anyone I could relate to even a little bit. In one or two aspects maybe, but that's about it. It's kind of interesting to me. I think most people here are suicidal because of some illness or disability, and I genuinely can't relate to that. I don't have any illness, I'm not disabled, I don't even have an allergy or intolerance.
I can't relate to people's experiences, interests, hobbies. I can't even relate to their reasons to ctb.
I suppose you could say that I feel like an alien. Or I'm just a very shallow person, who knows.
It feels kind of wrong to even consider to ctb when I've never even experienced any pain or suffering. I guess I'm just weird.

 

[Illegal Preclear]

You don't have to feel wrong or guilty about wanting to CTB just because you're not disabled. Your reasons are your reasons - and that's enough. Human life has very few "perks", and one of those "perks" is the ability to form human connections - if that's not available to you, I don't blame you in the slightest for wanting to check out. Everyone should have the right to die, period. It's not a competition of who's going through more or less suffering. It's okay to want to die just because you want to die.

 

[Alltheywanted]

It feels kind of wrong to even consider to ctb when I've never even experienced any pain or suffering

I used to consider suicide because I suffered alot. I even had an attempt once.
Now I'm leaning towards CTB because I'm just so tired of everything, of life, of having to pretend all the time, of people, of my duties and etc.
It's not like your reason is invalid or anything. It's not like ANY reason is invalid.
Just do what you think is correct and think it over. And Don't feel bad for your needs, it's a human thing and I have them too ;3

 

[LaughingGoat]

Agree you have nothing to feel wrong about. Lack of empathy/ability to relate is more common than most think and doesn't usually mean someone is shallow, there are numerous disorders which have that as a indicator. Have you ever gone through any testing?

 

[UmbraDweller]

Suicide is always a sensible option and it should be everyones right. No matter what your reasons may be or if they are more or less severe than others, they are reasonable and there's nothing wrong with you considering CTB. There's no pain required to realize how pointless life is for instance, that alone is enough of a reason. Noone should be forced into life.

 

[PAfb_640]

I can't relate with anyone too. People tried to have conversations with me and I get uninterested before 5 sentences. My mind is broken, my personality is shallow, my life is boring. I am unlovable. Who wants to find a partner like me? Who wants to spend the rest of their lives with someone like me? No one! Even I don't want to live with this soul of mine.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I plan on ctbing sometime in the future (there is something I need to accomplish first though) and I'm not mentally or physically ill. I have allergies and eczema but that's it. I would consider my life to have been pretty good for the most part (definitely better than the lives of most people on here). I think this small excerpt from another post I made on here today best showcases my situation:

I've also still been struggling with my issues with wanting my pain validated. I know that my life isn't that bad, and I wouldn't describe anything I've gone through as traumatic. I have no trauma. I'm not mentally ill either, as I don't show symptoms of any mental illness. This sometimes makes me question why there always feels like there is something inherently wrong with me.

At the end of the day, this community isn't specifically based around trauma, mental illness, and physical illness. Its based around our own shared experiences with suicide. Whether we are mentally or physically ill or not, whether we have experienced pain or not, it doesn't matter. What matters is that we've all been touched by suicidal urges before and we all agree that we should have the right to end our lives if we so please. You aren't shallow for wanting to ctb despite not having any particular illness or disability. It's fine if you have a reason for ctbing that differs from everyone else's. We are all different people from different walks of life who have come here because of a current/past desire to ctb.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I can't relate to anyone also. Sure like on here i might agree with some things some people post . for example when some say "life is bad" i agree with that . but those are only a few things. with the normies I agree even less with . they think life is good for example.

but i don't even want to relate to any human or want a human connection friend or gf nothing , even if i didn't want non-existence . also why would i want to relate to an entity that has a different view of reality than i do ? Every human has a different view of reality than i do.

 

[EmptyHeaded]

Agree you have nothing to feel wrong about. Lack of empathy/ability to relate is more common than most think and doesn't usually mean someone is shallow, there are numerous disorders which have that as a indicator. Have you ever gone through any testing?

I wish it was "just" some disorder or something. It seems to be a personality thing, so I'm kind of stuck with it.

 

[LaughingGoat]

I wish it was "just" some disorder or something. It seems to be a personality thing, so I'm kind of stuck with it.

Clinically that's what personality disorders are, basically consistent traits/way of thinking/behaviors which differ from the "norm".

 

[xinino]

We lack some love. You can love literally anything rock if you want.

 

[EmptyHeaded]

Clinically that's what personality disorders are, basically consistent traits/way of thinking/behaviors which differ from the "norm".

I think you know what I mean. It's just a personality trait, not much more behind it.

 

[CTB Dream]

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