Help How to make SN quieter and more effective?

[hematomatema]

You're doing it now? I hope you're certain and that it goes smoothly this time

In a couple hours, need parents to fall asleep first so will take a while haha

 

[dontlook]

Oh gotcha I misunderstood. Not to late to pop out for something better than tic tacs?

 

[hematomatema]

Oh gotcha I misunderstood. Not to late to pop out for something better than tic tacs?

Yeah too late for that unfortunately, waiting till early morning so that I can do it without them waking up. Am hoping that the foul taste and smell of the SN last time was because I mixed it with squash last time, will just do it with water this time so it should go just fine even without something to mask the aftertaste.

 

[dontlook]

Yeah too late for that unfortunately, waiting till early morning so that I can do it without them waking up. Am hoping that the foul taste and smell of the SN last time was because I mixed it with squash last time, will just do it with water this time so it should go just fine even without something to mask the aftertaste.

Yeah and hopefully since it'll taste different without the squash it'll help trick your brain into not wanting to purge it immediately if it remembers the connection

 

[zel]

I'm wondering how you handle SI, if indeed you have to handle it at all. It sounds like your main problem has been taking and keeping it down, what with the taste and the reflex to vomit it and all.

Does it not frighten you - on an instinctual, primitive level - to know that what you're about to drink, or what is sitting in your stomach and entering your blood stream, will turn your blood a muddy brown and starve your organs of oxygen? The thought is so morbidly horrifying to me that I think that would be my most difficult obstacle.

 

[endofline2010]

Use something that's more lethal than SN...

 

[dontlook]

How you doing @hematomatema ?

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Not calling EMS. Must go through. Either toughing it out or dying.
Just vomited a lot. Attempt presumably unsuccessful but I don't know. Vomit smells like nitrite. A lot. I don't know what to do

Heard it taste like shit. Did it taste bad?

 

[waistcoat]

Hey @hematomatema - are you still with us?

 

[E.T]

I hope you found the peace you were looking for, and if you're still here, I hope you are not in any pain. @hematomatema