Venting I wish someone would fucking hug me

[LonelyPrince]

I wish someone would hug me and console me.
These days have just been shitty: all I do is sleep eat and bedrot. I'm having issues with my computer and drawing tablet, issues with my wifi and issues with everything.
I can't bring myself to do anything: i just scroll on this site and take melatonin to sleep and skip the rest of the day.
I can't harm myself because if I do I won't be able to meet my online friend at the end of the month. We are planning on meeting each other after 5 years and if i go ahead and risk my own life I will be put in a psych ward since I have a history of self harm.
My psychiatrist told me she doesn't know what to say to me anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't get what I should do. I'm confused. I wanna fucking die in my sleep. I feel so lonely.
I dreamt of taking sn and surviving. I'm scared of actually buying it and drinking it, I'm scared of making any final decisions.
I'm sorry for this pointless rant, I'm sorry.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I wish someone would hug me and console me.
These days have just been shitty: all I do is sleep eat and bedrot. I'm having issues with my computer and drawing tablet, issues with my wifi and issues with everything.
I can't bring myself to do anything: i just scroll on this site and take melatonin to sleep and skip the rest of the day.
I can't harm myself because if I do I won't be able to meet my online friend at the end of the month. We are planning on meeting each other after 5 years and if i go ahead and risk my own life I will be put in a psych ward since I have a history of self harm.
My psychiatrist told me she doesn't know what to say to me anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't get what I should do. I'm confused. I wanna fucking die in my sleep. I feel so lonely.
I dreamt of taking sn and surviving. I'm scared of actually buying it and drinking it, I'm scared of making any final decisions.
I'm sorry for this pointless rant, I'm sorry.

Same, getting a genuine hug from someone would feel like heaven atp. It's sad I have to fantasise abt being hugged. I'm also meeting a friend I met online at the end of the month, well we met alr once before but it's been a while. I hope u have a good time