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Walilamdzi
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- Mar 21, 2019
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Hey, how do you feel you could help me through it?Im not gonna encourage you but if you need help next time ill try to help you through it. Just pm me
Hey, how do you feel you could help me through it?Im not gonna encourage you but if you need help next time ill try to help you through it. Just pm me
Tbh i have no idea, maybe its just easier if youre not aloneHey, how do you feel you could help me through it?
That makes sense, thank you for your answer.I think that there will never be a way to be 100% about these things, but it's mainly if you're found early and resuscitated that this is a risk.
Its nigh impossible to 100% certain, if you have the means i suggest going for full, gives less off a risk. Just make sure that you wont be walkes in on, lock the door, pad your area to reduce noise. And then make sure your body has a hard time pushing back, thatll make it more difficult for it to get you outta the noose
Those are some good points you mentioned. I guess the risk will always be there, but taking precautions definitely reduces the risk, and that is always something. I do not have the means for full suspension, maybe SN could be another option, i guess i will have to figure that out.Its nigh impossible to 100% certain, if you have the means i suggest going for full, gives less off a risk. Just make sure that you wont be walkes in on, lock the door, pad your area to reduce noise. And then make sure your body has a hard time pushing back, thatll make it more difficult for it to get you outta the noose
Anyway, thank you for taking the time to answer my questions.
So something interesting and frustrating happened today. I have a relatively thin neck and my Adam's Apple isn't super large, as I am a female. I can easily find the pulses on either side of my neck, so that was never the problem for me when trying to figure out my plan for partial, it was moreso not getting the choking feeling or exploding head feeling, which happened every time I practiced. Then today I just grabbed a leather belt, placed it above my Adam's apple, and just wrapped the belt around my neck so that the two ends were in both of my hands and the base/meeting of the belt was behind my neck. Then I pulled as hard and as fast as I could and after 5 or 6 seconds my vision faded out. No pain, no exploding head feeling, no tingling lips, and I could breath just fine. Then I let go and my vision slowly faded back in slow motion and like euphorically. Then I tried to do the exact same thing about two minutes later and I had the uncomfortable pulsing and tingling, but no vision fading. My goal was just trying to see if I could correctly place the belt where my carotids could easily be squeezed, while also pulling hard enough. I didn't use a fixture or setup, just strangled myself with the belt using my hands to experiment. I don't know how I was able to place the belt and squeeze correctly the first time but only squeeze the jugular the second time. It's irritating.
I will just write my follow-up here.i just got my setup ready, i got two holes drilled in the ceiling and a flexible extension cord that is about 1cm thick and it holds fine with the simplest slpknot.
I cut a clean sock and put the cord through that, which gives it some padding at the front but not at the back where it compresses the carotid. I kept the plug on the front end, cause it stops the slipknot from opening (not that that's needed, it really holds enough already). And i have it above the adams apple (i don.t even know how below it should work).
I just tested it and after three tries of strengthening it around my neck fast (i didn't put enough pressure the first tries) my view faded away from blurred to dark and then to light and i got some thrumming in my ears, but there was no pain at all and it actually felt somehow good, i released it and as the view and the hearing came back i realized how far i was actually gone and it took me about 30s to be able to walk straight.
It made me feel happy and glad. No "DON'T DO THAT" survival instinct, just peace. If i would have had any religious doubts, that experience would have wiped it away, its almost like a welcome at the other side.
When i do it, i will do it partial, i will strengthen it as much as possible while standing on my tiptoes and then kneel into it once i get that feeling again or maybe i will stay at a box, i think i will bother about those details when i do it. I got delayed mail to the local police set up (a script that i run on my notebook that then also shuts it down). I got the trash out and put my belongings into bags and the key is under the doormat. I will give the delayed mail 12h, idk how a corpse looks like after that time, but it can't be that bad.
The only thing that can go wrong now is that i trash around and a neighbor finds me or that the ceiling comes crashing down (with my luck that failure will happen, lol).
I think i will be able to pull that off as a good closure to my life.
I am happy, feeling good and i am totally confident in it now.
I am 30, about 170cm, 80kg and i am on an empty stomach if that matters. And no drugs.
Edit:
If i this account goes mute, then i did it, wish you guys all the best, see you on the other side!
Edit 2:
Aaand that panel of the cailing came crashing down. That was really really bad luck
I stepped on a couch table to tighten the cord, but when i did that i already passed out, which made me fall down from that table and the planned partial suspension turned into a jump into full suspension which that ceiling panel, that was perfectly fine with push-ups, didn't like. I woke up on the floor with it on top of me. But again i managed to pass out without pain and the experience itself was again pretty good.
But thanks to that panel being gone, i have now access to a metal beam above it that is for holding cables. Did push ups on it, it did hold well.
So the same game starts over and i make Edit #3 when that crashes too. Probably again with stepping-down from couch table, will see, i will jump onto it a few times to see if it holes.. its a small metal beam, it really should.
Welcome to the club, it's an awesome feeling when it works out, isn't it? Wish you the best.I did partial yesterday, I used a scarf that is knotted to a laptop bag handle put it over top of my fire door and put it over my neck pulled it right and sat down about 3 inches off the ground I was it took me about 5 seconds it seems to black out, i have been trying all week and Just felt like my head was going to explode. Anyway I dreamt I was walking in the brightest greenest place care free, then I woke up sat on the floor (she scarf had stretch) gasping for air reaching out to pick myself up i forgot the scarf was around my neck still I got to my feet and tried to walk and got pulled backwards I undid the scarf and then started to have sweats and deep breathing. What I learned was you just have to relax when doing partial your body weight will make you black out no pain what so ever it's so fast, my mistake was been to close to the ground and that's why I'm still here.
Yeah I have I slowly drifted of it wasn't fast it was like falling to sleep for me I embraced it first time I got scared and stopped second time I embraced it. Then woke up bit later don't know how long later on the floor not knowing where I was trying to grab the wall and gasping for air I even forgot I had the noose around my neckHas anyone reached unconsciousness? What was it like? I'm mainly referring to those that woke up from being unconscious and untied themselves.
I used a scalf and it stretch I was sat down about 4 inches of the floor and I ended up say in the floor it was so peaceful and slow thoughWhat went wrong? Did. the rope snap?
I'm trying again tonight got a new rope set it all up and tested it and I felt like was slowly falling to sleep again no pain felt reassuring to, if I don't post a reply again you will know why. Much love to all of you And I hope you find peace either on the other side on in this horrible place where humans exist, but I'm ready to CTB nowI used a scalf and it stretch I was sat down about 4 inches of the floor and I ended up say in the floor it was so peaceful and slow though
I was thinking about getting drunk before doing it, especially to avoid that kind of situationI'm finding it so difficult. Today I tried partial again and it took me a bit to find the neck placement and when I finally had the numb sensation, legs started going limp and hard to stand, then I stood up due to the noose becoming uncomfortable. I tried again and didn't move around the noose, same sensation, stood up again and went to drink some water. I came back and tried to position the noose in the exact same place but it doesn't work. It's so frustrating.
Yes, partial is indeed possible from a tree. You will need to find a tree with a branch low enough to partial hang or you need a longer rope if the branch is too high. The branch also has to be strong enough to hold your bodyweight.I'm going to commit suicide tonight is there a way you can partial hang from a tree want to make sure i don't get found until I'm fully dead vause I've read it takes 30 minutes
It is possible, but i can´t answer with 100% certainty. It has to be strong enough to hold your bodyweight and not break. You could try hanging with your hands, as if you would do a pull-up. If it doesn´t bend significantly, it will most likely work.Do you think washing line will work to hang myself with. Its plastic with metal inside the rope if you understand what I mean?
That's a massive call, I have done partial and stepped off full suspension, more as a tester, you need to get the sweet spot, you seem to have no fear at all; are you afraid? I do admire the bravery, I hope too to find my bravery as I believe this is my way too. I wish you a good journey and if you decide not, then you have a place here on this siteI will go for full suspension now too, i just can't get the perfect spot like i did on my first try. A failed try really messes up all future tries. Full suspension is the only save way for me now that doesn't make me readjust it 100 times.
Hopefully today, which will be the 3rd try then. People say that three is the charm.
For all people considering partial i can really just give the advice of trying to be very save in your first try. It's the best chance. All future tries are harder to pull off once you failed one already.
I reconsidered it enough to know that i am sure.That's a massive call, I have done partial and stepped off full suspension, more as a tester, you need to get the sweet spot, you seem to have no fear at all; are you afraid? I do admire the bravery, I hope too to find my bravery as I believe this is my way too. I wish you a good journey and if you decide not, then you have a place here on this site
You seem to have it down, yes I'll do hanging myself. I just want peace. You have a good journey. I'm still looking info about partial, you hang till about to pass, get up and rush of blood knock you out so you choke out. You don't even need to have 9-10 seconds. Just insure sweet spot and that you cannot be found for a while, not succeeding is not what you want or like to find out.I reconsidered it enough to know that i am sure.
The first try was perfect and was feeling good and failed by bad luck, the second try was just uncomfortable. Not painful, just uncomfortable. But just having to stand up to get out of partial is way too easy.
What even is 3 to 10s of feeling uncomfortable, that would be needed to succeed? I am tired of it, kicking chair away will be it.
That sweet spot is nice and awesome. Problem is if you find it, and fail for some reason and then can't find it anymore straight away. That's what happened to me and what happened to a poster just two days ago in this thread. And you can read it multiple times.You seem to have it down, yes I'll do hanging myself. I just want peace. You have a good journey. I'm still looking info about partial, you hang till about to pass, get up and rush of blood knock you out so you choke out. You don't even need to have 9-10 seconds. Just insure sweet spot and that you cannot be found for a while, not succeeding is not what you want or like to find out.
I'll do it one like the others before me, I can't I won't fail but first need bravery and fortitude that I see you have