i just got my setup ready, i got two holes drilled in the ceiling and a flexible extension cord that is about 1cm thick and it holds fine with the simplest slpknot.
I cut a clean sock and put the cord through that, which gives it some padding at the front but not at the back where it compresses the carotid. I kept the plug on the front end, cause it stops the slipknot from opening (not that that's needed, it really holds enough already). And i have it above the adams apple (i don.t even know how below it should work).
I just tested it and after three tries of strengthening it around my neck fast (i didn't put enough pressure the first tries) my view faded away from blurred to dark and then to light and i got some thrumming in my ears, but there was no pain at all and it actually felt somehow good, i released it and as the view and the hearing came back i realized how far i was actually gone and it took me about 30s to be able to walk straight.
It made me feel happy and glad. No "DON'T DO THAT" survival instinct, just peace. If i would have had any religious doubts, that experience would have wiped it away, its almost like a welcome at the other side.
When i do it, i will do it partial, i will strengthen it as much as possible while standing on my tiptoes and then kneel into it once i get that feeling again or maybe i will stay at a box, i think i will bother about those details when i do it. I got delayed mail to the local police set up (a script that i run on my notebook that then also shuts it down). I got the trash out and put my belongings into bags and the key is under the doormat. I will give the delayed mail 12h, idk how a corpse looks like after that time, but it can't be that bad.
The only thing that can go wrong now is that i trash around and a neighbor finds me or that the ceiling comes crashing down (with my luck that failure will happen, lol).
I think i will be able to pull that off as a good closure to my life.
I am happy, feeling good and i am totally confident in it now.
I am 30, about 170cm, 80kg and i am on an empty stomach if that matters. And no drugs.
Edit:
If i this account goes mute, then i did it, wish you guys all the best, see you on the other side!
Edit 2:
Aaand that panel of the cailing came crashing down. That was really really bad luck
I stepped on a couch table to tighten the cord, but when i did that i already passed out, which made me fall down from that table and the planned partial suspension turned into a jump into full suspension which that ceiling panel, that was perfectly fine with push-ups, didn't like. I woke up on the floor with it on top of me. But again i managed to pass out without pain and the experience itself was again pretty good.
But thanks to that panel being gone, i have now access to a metal beam above it that is for holding cables. Did push ups on it, it did hold well.
So the same game starts over and i make Edit #3 when that crashes too. Probably again with stepping-down from couch table, will see, i will jump onto it a few times to see if it holes.. its a small metal beam, it really should.