I want to do this today. Right now, even. I could do it at any minute. I have the next six hours. But I just can't get past that survival instinct. And I have the slight concern of "WHAT IF something goes wrong." Though, I don't see how that would be possible. The bar in my closet is made of wood, but I am able to do pull ups on it, and I weigh 135 lbs. It is very strong. And I am only doing a partial suspension in a lying down position, so there will be less than 20 lbs of pressure. The ligature I am using is a thick outdoor extension cord. I've used it to pull myself off the ground and it does support my full weight somewhat, but also seems to stretch a bit. But that's from 135 lbs...so I don't see how it would be possible for less than 20 lbs of pressure to stretch or break the cord. Nor how the knot could possibly come undone. It seems 100% fool proof and fatal, but I am still afraid. I really wish I wasn't.