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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
5. We ate oatmeal and nothing but oatmeal every single day because we were poor enough to not have money for food, and my dad stole a sack of oatmeal from his job, so it was the only food we had. I'm never eating oatmeal voluntarily again.

How old were you when you dined in a fancy restaraunt for the first time?
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,369
Earliest I can remember was when I was 5. My parents weren't that rich but they were both friends with the owner so we actually went to this big, fancy Chinese restaurant all the time.

How old were you when your parents actually started treating you like an adult?
 
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killedbypsychiatry

killedbypsychiatry

drugging kids is abuse
Jan 27, 2021
797
I'm 18 and I'm still waiting! My mom is very controlling and never respects boundaries. Ironically, her perception of me as a being that lacks autonomy, and the actions she took while trying to control me, is what destroyed me and brought me here.

How old where you when you realized existence is futile?
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,369
I was 20 when Rick and Morty came out. :wink:
Jk, I think I was actually 19 when I started to realize something like that.

How old were you when you first bought a lottery ticket?
 
killedbypsychiatry

killedbypsychiatry

drugging kids is abuse
Jan 27, 2021
797
I was 15

how old were you when you first fell in love?
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,369
11. It took me until I was 20 to get over her.

How old were you when you first traveled to a different country?
 
WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

DoNotBoopTheSnoot
Dec 25, 2020
1,081
How old were you when you first traveled to a different country?
6. It was to Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai in Thailand. I can still remember the umbrellas and giving snacks to kids in a rural village.

HOWY when the wall between you and 'normal' people become tangible?
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,369
Probably when I was about 18, I felt completely out of place compared to the rest of my peers while living in a college dorm.

How old were you when you first openly questioned an authority?
 
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littlelungs

littlelungs

Wizard
Oct 21, 2018
627
Probably when I was about 18, I felt completely out of place compared to the rest of my peers while living in a college dorm.

How old were you when you first openly questioned an authority?

About 3, when I was in preschool. I've had authority issues for a long time. I don't know exactly where they came from at that age, but the events in my life that followed definitely didn't help, and then I grew up a little more and realized how corrupt most things are. I've also just always been very strong-willed.

How old were you when you when you first learned about outer space?

(Just casually reviving this thread. :tongue:)
 
needed_

needed_

waiting for a miracle
Dec 17, 2021
804
I think around 6, I had a book about astronauts and space shuttles and the first dog in space :)

How old were you when you tried coffee for the first time?
 
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MindFrog

MindFrog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
723
How old were you when you tried coffee for the first time?

Around 7 years old, I wasn't allowed to drink any until my teens but I took a swig on my dad's mug. T'was nice and bitter. Now I'm an addict.

How old were you when you got your first phone?
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,369
How old were you when you got your first phone?
11 or 12. It was one of those Razor flip phones and even though I brought it to school, it was embarrassing because it kept ringing and I had no idea how to silence the phone at the time. Even when I set it to vibrate, it vibrates so loudly that it got confiscated a couple times. My phone was also my introduction to a lot of shows like South Park and Family Guy because it came with clips from each of those shows.

How old were you when you first felt nostalgia for something from your past?
 
GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,743
Can't really feel nostalgia. Still going with 17, when I dug out a PS2 and played star wars battlefront (one of the first games I played as a child).

HOWY when you first hit someone?
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,369
I was 9 years old and got suspended for it even though I was always weak as fuck and the guy I hit was literally taking karate lessons. Everybody saw through his crocodile tears though so I was only suspended for a day.

How old were you when you got your first vaccine? 😈
 
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GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,743
Think at like two years old or something, lol.

HOWY when you first failed at an education or job?
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,369
First time I got an F in a class was in 4th grade at 10 years old because I didn't do an essay since I had no ideas what to write for it. I took the failing grade and the spankings and just lived with it.

How old were you when you first bought something with money that you made for yourself?
 
GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,743
18, had a shitty job that I eventually quit after a month or two (I do this with everything). Bought a gaming laptop or something (now broken). This game is fun to play when your memory is shit.

HOWY when you first "experienced" anhedonia?
 
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MindFrog

MindFrog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
723
HOWY when you first "experienced" anhedonia?
Around 8 I think.. I used to wander too much that my mom decided to lock me inside the house everytime she's gone. I don't know why but it really changed me. I remember being so used to just sitting to that small apartment, doing anything else felt meaningless even playing. I just waited for her to come back so i can eat dinner.

How old where you when you first drank alcohol?
 
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GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,743
18, which is apparently uncommon.

HOWY when you were first tricked by people on the internet to believe in weird shit (religion, flat earth, conspiracies, etc)?
 
littlelungs

littlelungs

Wizard
Oct 21, 2018
627
18, which is apparently uncommon.

HOWY when you were first tricked by people on the internet to believe in weird shit (religion, flat earth, conspiracies, etc)?

19, I think. I was really into numbers station conspiracies for a while. I still like to read about weird shit and sometimes end up pretty deep down the rabbit hole, but it's just to pass the time.

How old were you when you first went grocery shopping by yourself?
 
MeltedJello

MeltedJello

My brain is a liquid mess.
Aug 18, 2021
2,215
13 or 14, I believe. I actually live near a grocery store, like a 5-10min walk, so I bought milk for the first time when my mom asked me to. Never went grocery shopping to buy things for myself though.

How old were you when you first learned that the internet contained porn?
 
Silenos

Silenos

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Jul 25, 2020
1,056
Maybe 10? Oh the good ol' days of dial-up internet lol.

How old were you when you went on your first vacation without your parents?
 
Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,796
I was 18 when I first tried to CTB, how old were you when you lost your virginity?
 
GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,743
Haven't gone on a vacation without parents, have not lost my virginity (23) and never will.

HOWY when you realized you'll die without ever having had a romantic relationship?
 
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littlelungs

littlelungs

Wizard
Oct 21, 2018
627
HOWY when you realized you'll die without ever having had a romantic relationship?

I never really thought that I was going to die without ever having had a romantic relationship, but I was 23 when I remember first consciously thinking to myself that I was going to die either without ever having been in a relationship that was somewhat fulfilling (I've always been attracted to men but even more than that I was completely terrified of them because of my history, but I also wanted companionship and felt safer with women, and for years I interpreted that as me being gay, despite still being attracted to men – it was complicated, distressing and very confusing to say the least), or one in which I was actually treated with respect and wasn't just a glorified booty call to the other person. I met my husband not too long after thinking that (while still being stuck in an unhealthy relationship for more complicated reasons) and it was the last thing I ever expected. I'd already booked my hotel room to ctb when I met him but a few days after we met I cancelled it to give life one last shot.

How old were you when you first learned the truth about Santa Claus?
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,369
………15. I was in pretty heavy denial before that though and just assumed I wasn't getting anything because I was bad. My parents didn't even make any effort to keep me believing in him, I simply chose to assume he was real because I saw that "NORAD Santa tracker" website on the internet.

How old were you the first time a favorite store of yours was closed down for good?
 
Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,382
Ehh... can't remember the exact age, but in my teens, 10-16.

How old were you when you first played a video game?
 
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Rayzieka

Rayzieka

Not Really Here
Apr 28, 2021
637
Likely 1 years old "playing" cardgames on my grandparents dinosaur computer.

How old were you when you when you first tried coffee?
 
Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,382
4 years old.

How old were you when you first were on a ship?
 

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