How often do you fantasize about CTB?

[seekingoblivion]

3 fantasies 4 times daily before and after meals.

 

[stargazer]

Regularly, very regularly. It may as well be my only thoughts now. It has warmly consumed me. I wish it'll end very soon.

 

[Deafsn0w]

Every second, every minute, every one hour, every one day, every one month, every one year, every decade...

 

[Deafsn0w]

Do u want go in pact in usa with gun

I would love to

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I'm reminded every single moment of the day that my CTB is unavoidable.

 

[Deafsn0w]

[email protected]

Emailed

 

[DariaBuPL]

My ctb is kinda planned now, so I'm just enoying the last days (or months, still don't know about it). Trying not to think about it a lot. Maybe just five times a week I guess.

 

[muretax]

Practically everyday, all day. Sometimes I'll miss majority of the day but at one point or another it crosses my mind.

 

[JustLosingMyself]

Actively planned.
Soon...

 

[Anubis901]

Every day, especially at night. Being alone with my thoughts is the worst.

 

[Final Escape]

Lately I don't think about it as much as I fantasize choking out the gorilla looking women harassing me.

What?

 

[OkTotti]

Mornings and early afternoons are the times I want to CTB the most.... nighttime for some reason I don't...

 

[deathbycakes]

everyday, every hour. but i can't so that sucks. can only wish that something else got me dead soon

 

[Jiva]

Honestly? Every day.

 

[littlelady774]

Everyday. Especially before I go to sleep- I pray that I won't wake up

 

[Roph]

I think about ctb the majority of time that I am awake. I sleep as much as I can. It's the only peace I get.

 

[dustyermine]

I have it fully planned out in my head, I spend most of the time fantasizing about it while I'm working. Drawing brings me some peace, though.

 

[Kellogg's]

when I'm idle

 

[DisaffectedOne]

Every hour of every day since the 23rd

 

[311]

Very often

 

[brokenbone]

Often enough so it doesn't feel "out of place" in my thoughts anymore. It's become a comforting feeling which is nice.

 

[Titania]

I would say everyday. I can't stand nights because that's when I'm the most vulnerable to self-harming. I also have insomnia so my mind spins in circles, my mind dissociates from my body, and then I begin to feel like in a trance. Distracting myself usually keeps me at bay but it only works for so long so I pass out from tiredness. That's my routine every night.

 

[QuickandPainless]

Sometimes it gets so bad that I feel like there hasn't been a second where I ever felt life was worth living.

 

[Politecat]

I'm actually planning to CTB this year, not this month, not on February but maybe March or April

 

[Ch92921]

Every second.

 

[stellabelle]

Every waking minute of every day and every night.