Graham.N
Euthanasia is the greatest form of compassion
- Aug 5, 2020
- 44
Since August of 2019, I have fantasized about dying almost every day. Truth be told is was always graphic how I would do it, or at least back then. Back then, it was creating an electrolytic solution in the bathtub and then exposing the ends of an extension cord and putting it in the bathtub. Sodium Floride was another option because it was easy to get. SN i bought and had for several years. Massive drug overdoses were a part of the plan too. Now I am stuck on an exit bag. This is the best one.
I told myself I was going to work today, but after going out into the world for only a few hours, I had had enough and went home, and now I am in bed. I plan to be here for the rest of the day. I want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I hate all the lies everyone tells. It's not helping me. It only made things worse, and no one will ever be honest, either.
I'm not sure when I am going to do it, but it seems that this time there is no talking me out of it.
I never truly wanted to live my life like this. But I guess I am the idiot for letting the people I trusted tell me from a young age what is good for me and what is not, and then finding out as an adult that they were withholding key information from me to get an outcome they wanted from me. It served them well, but it has left me unable to live my life in any meaningful capacity.
I told myself I was going to work today, but after going out into the world for only a few hours, I had had enough and went home, and now I am in bed. I plan to be here for the rest of the day. I want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I hate all the lies everyone tells. It's not helping me. It only made things worse, and no one will ever be honest, either.
I'm not sure when I am going to do it, but it seems that this time there is no talking me out of it.
I never truly wanted to live my life like this. But I guess I am the idiot for letting the people I trusted tell me from a young age what is good for me and what is not, and then finding out as an adult that they were withholding key information from me to get an outcome they wanted from me. It served them well, but it has left me unable to live my life in any meaningful capacity.
