WallTermite
Student
- Aug 16, 2025
- 172
I've come to the realization that drowning is my best option, or the most realistic. I plan on inhaling deodorant spray and jumping into the water at my national coast.
The problem is the timing tho. If I go during the day, people can spot me easily. I don't know if it's easy to save someone but I don't wanna risk it, nor do I want to traumatize others and make a scene. People usually chill at the coastline.
At night it would be super hard to spot me. My plan would be to order an uber to drive me there. But I don't know if it would be suspicious.
I could technically drive myself, but I did that once and it was the worst experience ever. My anxiety was through the roof and I had to get my ass back home. SI is no joke. Especially because I hate dealing with traffic so that added to the nightmare night. I could probably have some drinks to get courage to actually do it. I don't know if the driver might suspect something tho. I could probably set the destinatiom to somewhere close rather than directly, so I'll have to walk a bit. No problem.
I'm sorry for this message, I know this is up to me, but I gave up on life and the methods are equally scary. Speaking out really helps a lot.
The problem is the timing tho. If I go during the day, people can spot me easily. I don't know if it's easy to save someone but I don't wanna risk it, nor do I want to traumatize others and make a scene. People usually chill at the coastline.
At night it would be super hard to spot me. My plan would be to order an uber to drive me there. But I don't know if it would be suspicious.
I could technically drive myself, but I did that once and it was the worst experience ever. My anxiety was through the roof and I had to get my ass back home. SI is no joke. Especially because I hate dealing with traffic so that added to the nightmare night. I could probably have some drinks to get courage to actually do it. I don't know if the driver might suspect something tho. I could probably set the destinatiom to somewhere close rather than directly, so I'll have to walk a bit. No problem.
I'm sorry for this message, I know this is up to me, but I gave up on life and the methods are equally scary. Speaking out really helps a lot.
