Discussion How many of you really tried getting better but it didnt work?

[Wannagonow]

30 years of consistent, but varying types of medication. Also 30 years of continuous, varying types of therapy. Over 20 sessions of ECT. Multiple month long stays at psychiatric hospitals (all non- voluntary). Those are the major things that have shaped my life. Yeah- been there, done that. I'd say I've put in adequate effort. It's time to go.

 

[byebyered]

I'm about to make a last ditch effort to turn things around for myself, so I guess I'll let you know. I don't hold out much hope, but at least I'll know I tried I guess.

Same . Got nothing to lose at this point . Good luck to you <3

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

Same . Got nothing to lose at this point . Good luck to you <3

And to you friend. Thank you for the kind words.

 

[Ligottian]

"Raises hand"

 

[cloperti3345]

Im talking about like therapy, self-improvement, medication, altruism... all that stuff you know?

In my case I tried everything. I tried and tried but nothing ever worked. I still hate myself. I still hate the world we live in.

Currently I'm really seeing that suicide is the only available option to me.

DBT, daily and consistent exercise, talk therapy. Still here

 

[vultureilse]

ive been to a ton of therapists since i was 10, tried a bunch of meds, currently on citalopram, tried to get healthier by exercising, eating better and having a consistent sleeping schedule but nothing has ever improved my mental state

for me the only option is suicide because my trauma has permanently fucked me up as a person and i dont want to live this way. even if i managed to get better every single day would still be a struggle cause of my mental illnesses

 

[asterisk3]

im still trying. but im afraid theres no "getting better" for who you fundamentally are already. since i believe this, i will be trying this year to change my habits and force (quite literally force) myself to do new, "healthy" things and try again with old ones. just one more time. one last time before i have to face the endlessly tall wall of death before me. before i am forced to face it, i will try fixing things one more time. and i know that if i fail ive tried all that was possible in this realm, and as such can happily shrug off my responsibility and sins of "failing" when ive done it all to fix it. that is what i want in the end: die without feeling like i could have done more or end up... succeeding.

i have a good chance of ascending to a high-paying field this year. money wont fix any of my problems, if im honest... almost none of them. but maybe the "connections", focusing on work, activities and coping with junk entertainment can help me get to a level decent enough to manage.

odds are ill just CTB this month though

 

[randy]

tried everything except ECT

 

[lionetta12]

Im talking about like therapy, self-improvement, medication, altruism... all that stuff you know?

In my case I tried everything. I tried and tried but nothing ever worked. I still hate myself. I still hate the world we live in.

Currently I'm really seeing that suicide is the only available option to me.

I've tried everything that's legal and available for me except ECT because I keep being denied that, without any improvement. I've given up at this point.

 

[Unending]

I've been trying for years but it's just not working out. I've given up, despite still being in treatment, and have recently come to the conclusion that maybe treatment isn't working due to the fact that it's just flat out hard to live in a world where such horrible things are even possible. It puts a damper on anything good knowing that millions are always going to be suffering at any given moment.

 

[another@]

Yep, I'm at my last stop before I just end it all if these final things don't work. It looks like the surgery I got for my bladder is not a fit for me which really leaves no feasible options for me anymore as far as treatment goes for that. I'll have to talk to my urologist soon and actually see though if thats the case. Then as far as mental health goes, I'm seeing a new therapist and I'm going to try my best and see what happens but I'm so burned out. Honestly even if the therapy works, if my bladder stuff doesn't have any chance of improving then I'm CTB. I can't stand another 7 years of this physical illness. Especially when doctors are so ignorant about it or act like I'm exaggerating/faking things because nothing is helping. It's so freaking disheartening. It's even worse with regular people making jokes about it and give the worst advice on earth or act like they can relate to me because they've been pregnant or they drink a lot of water, etc. lol when they've never even expirenced an ounce of suffering thats comparable to what I go through every moment physically/mentally because of my bladder. I've been trying for so long but there's only so much I can do.

It's really stupid. For these problems people make fun of them, just by the name, like they haven't got over potty jokes from third grade. And yet they are the ones who will be quick to accuse of "exxagerating" and "immature whining". People get their intestines and bladders removed and lives the rest of their lives with a machine, but the only time I heard people acting sympathetic was when Markiplier had to take some hospital grade laxatives. These people are so scummy. Rant over. Sorry you have to deal with that.

 

[Trilucid]

While I can't say everything has gone bad, I feel like my steps towards improvement have taken me ways back if anything.
Sucks that sometimes it's back at square one.