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Praestat_Mori
Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
- May 21, 2023
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About 5-6 years passively but was active last year. Currently I'd say more passive than active but in the worst case I would have method.
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SameI am 37 Years....since 17....
Regrets to have lived 20 Years...
Hour?Pour moi, c'est vers 3 heures
Very relatable. I feel like I have to wait for my mom to die first.I've always felt like I had to wait for certain people in my life to die first.
That's a very long time. Do you mind sharing more?Since 1982.
That was the first time I tried to CTB. I was 12. It was feeble and I was caught. From that I learned how I was viewed, as unstable and broken, an embarrassment to my family. I found chemicals at that point and started down the pathway of sewer-slide on the installment plan. I was "put away" at 18, as the family said it was "for the best". I learned to mask, hiding my symptoms as best I could. Series of overdoses followed, all pathetic failures of my ultimate goal. I tripped up and convinced myself that I could be a human being. That led to a family, which was a horrible thing for me to do. They did not deserve the inevitable chaos I brought, what with addiction, mental illness etc. Thankfully, they fled. Now I am physically ailing, with no hope of recovery, so I have nothing left. There you have it.That's a very long time. Do you mind sharing more?