It amazes me how many people say they were suicidal from a very young age.
When I was 10-18 years old, I was enjoying life. Not in the sense that I was happiest person alive, but I did not consider myself to be depressed - that alone is miles beyond my current state.
18 years old - some very traumatic events happened, I became severely depressed and first had thoughts of suicide (very brief, not extremely serious). 18-22 years old, I lived with constant depression and anxiety, I was never the same. Everyday was a battle, i do not know how I managed to do it.
now, 22 years old. It came crashing down and I don't see a way out. There is only a certain amount of time a human can keep pushing through blindly before hope is lost. I'm mad that a few things here and there in the past would've completely changed my life, but what is the use complaining - this is where I'm at now.
My biggest fears now are what comes after death, the discomfort of the process, and leaving loved ones behind.
When I was 10-18 years old, I was enjoying life. Not in the sense that I was happiest person alive, but I did not consider myself to be depressed - that alone is miles beyond my current state.
18 years old - some very traumatic events happened, I became severely depressed and first had thoughts of suicide (very brief, not extremely serious). 18-22 years old, I lived with constant depression and anxiety, I was never the same. Everyday was a battle, i do not know how I managed to do it.
now, 22 years old. It came crashing down and I don't see a way out. There is only a certain amount of time a human can keep pushing through blindly before hope is lost. I'm mad that a few things here and there in the past would've completely changed my life, but what is the use complaining - this is where I'm at now.
My biggest fears now are what comes after death, the discomfort of the process, and leaving loved ones behind.
