Gstreater
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- Aug 10, 2024
- 49
Around eight years now with a few attempts through the years with being stuck in a mental ward making it worse.
For me there have been ups and downs. So not always suicidal, but it was more like that thought was always "on the back burner" so to speak.since i was 13, now im 18 and idk how yall are like 32, im scared, please tell me it gets better
Thanks for the explanation.That the state that I live in here in the U.S., the state owns and runs a mental health facility, some may call it by other definitions, long tern mental health institution or hospital, but it is a place that houses folks with long term or permanent mental health issues for life.
So, all the money to run house the folks and all the upkeep comes either or usually it is a combo of state and federal money here in the U.S.
Like me, after my 2nd attempt, I had a nasty court fight where the state that I live in here in the U.S. wanted to put me in a state-run mental health institution, I won, thank GOD, but it is along those lines. For me, at least what I somewhat heard and can remember, it was back in 2015, it would have been at least 1 year. I would have lived there, and I could NOT go out of the place on my own, for like a walk, so glad it did not come to pass.
Walter
i also thought about not existing when i was 8 but i wasn't actually suicidal or depressedThoughts of "not wanting to exist" started at around 7-8 years old, thoughts of "wanting to end it myself" started when i was 11. Though i've had destructive behaviours since that age, i've never seriously attempted. I'll be 22 in a few months, and i'm surprised at how i've managed to stay alive this long. Anyway, i plan on attempting somewhere in the near future, and i hope my first try will be successful.