How do you feel right now?

[NullSz00]

Terrible again, can't figure anything out.

 

[lacrimosa]

I stopped taking most of my meds so I am feeling great, how long this feeling will last is anyone's guess... I couldn't stomach the side effects anymore and I feel like Superman!

But, the psychosis is just waiting in the background, slowly creeping forward and then... POUNCE... So I have that to look forward to...

 

[Ash]

Dinged my car today just to finish things off so really wish I'd stayed in bed.

 

[Ash]

Trying to hold things together but not doing a very good job of it

 

[Steff1337]

Slightly physically ill and tired.

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Today, finally I went insane!
My job is toxic, not just mundane -
I get nothing but derogation -
It has been an interrogation!

Because I can't do anything right,
I think I deserve this hopeless plight.
So I dream of ultimate escape -
From the earth, this sadistic hellscape!

I have a rope instead of hope, so,
I'm sure, finally it's time to go.
Now rant over, I will go to bed -
A dream will clean up inside my head.

 

[i dont feel real.]

Nothing. I feel nothing. My real thoughts are closed because of the emotional castration that the meds are. To be honest. I hate everything, I hate myself, I hate this world full of bad people. And even so, thinking about that does nothing. I don't feel sad, I don't cry, I just feel numb. I feel a fake happiness that is feeling nothing. I hate this.

 

[Not a Cylon]

I've been crying all day. I'm so tired of my life, this loneliness, all this regret and shame I carry with me. I'm haunted by all the opportunities at love that I've lost, how I've left my self become so physically unhealthy, how the injury I sustained and all the surgeries have left me essentially a eunuch. I messed up my life in so, so many ways. All I want to do is feel better, have intimacy again, someone who gives a fuck enough to fight for me.

Not everyone gets a happy life or a happy ending. I want to feel joy again and I'm so scared it's all over. So here I am, spilling my soul to strangers who are suffering themselves, what the fuck am I even doing. I'm so tired of this life.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Strangely isolated and lonely, though there's no discernible reason why I feel as such.

 

[Ash]

Not good (understatement)

 

[Mebius]

More mentally destroyed than last time

 

[Steff1337]

Miserable, 'cause I'm physically ill on top of mental illness.

 

[Ash]

Not good (understatement)

As above but with even more SH

 

[lost_ange1]

bad.. worse ..

 

[catnowmeowmeow]

I'm am hyper focused on ctb right now, as part of my adhd it's the only thing keeping me interested and excited. Everything else feels dull. Even going all my favorite things is not rewarding like I don't feel anything and am totally numb.

 

[Ash]

Isolated and abandoned

 

[AmberianDawn]

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

Undeserving and worthless…..

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Stressed

 

[Ash]

Mostly just tired and tired of it all.

 

[Not a Cylon]

Exhausted, sad. Currently looking up the easiest way to obtain a gun and am disappointed that it's not feasible. I'd like to not feel this way and not desire to yeet myself but I'm worried I'm losing the battle and will to try and find the light.

 

[Steff1337]

Improvement from yesterday's suffering from severe anxiety.

 

[Ash]

Tired

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Hopeful

 

[Perdition]

hunted down, like a stalked animal, have to sit in the bathroom to get away from my bf trying to control and monitor everything I do. I wish I could be free from him.

 

[hailtheoceanborn]

exhausted, reminiscing about past memories. every now and then i think I've escaped my own thoughts but then they come back

 

[LoiteringClouds]

My depression came back.
For it, there's no effective hack.
I'm in therapy, have a job, eat healthy and work out -
If they didn't work out I might need a way out...

 

[Ash]

I've been worse but that's not much comfort right now.

 

[peaches]

Horrible.
I had a huge reminder today that I am not meant to be in life. Big error.
Struggle every day. Exhausted.
I fear a failed attempt, and that would even be worse.

 

[atdusk]

I honestly don't know. I've been trying to work for a while now, but ideas just don't come. The problem with creative work is I need to be joyful inside and I am not.