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lacrimosa

lacrimosa

Student
Jul 1, 2024
114
I stopped taking most of my meds so I am feeling great, how long this feeling will last is anyone's guess... I couldn't stomach the side effects anymore and I feel like Superman!

But, the psychosis is just waiting in the background, slowly creeping forward and then... POUNCE... So I have that to look forward to...
 
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Ash

Ash

Enlightened
Oct 4, 2021
1,446
Dinged my car today just to finish things off so really wish I'd stayed in bed.
 
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Ash

Ash

Enlightened
Oct 4, 2021
1,446
Trying to hold things together but not doing a very good job of it
 
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DarknetAnon

DarknetAnon

Severely mentally disabled.
Jun 21, 2024
115
Slightly physically ill and tired.
 
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LoiteringClouds

LoiteringClouds

Tempus fugit
Feb 7, 2023
3,758
Today, finally I went insane!
My job is toxic, not just mundane -
I get nothing but derogation -
It has been an interrogation!

Because I can't do anything right,
I think I deserve this hopeless plight.
So I dream of ultimate escape -
From the earth, this sadistic hellscape!

I have a rope instead of hope, so,
I'm sure, finally it's time to go.
Now rant over, I will go to bed -
A dream will clean up inside my head.
 
i dont feel real.

i dont feel real.

No more sense in this
Apr 13, 2024
46
Nothing. I feel nothing. My real thoughts are closed because of the emotional castration that the meds are. To be honest. I hate everything, I hate myself, I hate this world full of bad people. And even so, thinking about that does nothing. I don't feel sad, I don't cry, I just feel numb. I feel a fake happiness that is feeling nothing. I hate this.
 
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Not a Cylon

Blah
Jun 27, 2024
46
I've been crying all day. I'm so tired of my life, this loneliness, all this regret and shame I carry with me. I'm haunted by all the opportunities at love that I've lost, how I've left my self become so physically unhealthy, how the injury I sustained and all the surgeries have left me essentially a eunuch. I messed up my life in so, so many ways. All I want to do is feel better, have intimacy again, someone who gives a fuck enough to fight for me.

Not everyone gets a happy life or a happy ending. I want to feel joy again and I'm so scared it's all over. So here I am, spilling my soul to strangers who are suffering themselves, what the fuck am I even doing. I'm so tired of this life.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Paragon
Nov 13, 2021
947
Strangely isolated and lonely, though there's no discernible reason why I feel as such.
 
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DarknetAnon

DarknetAnon

Severely mentally disabled.
Jun 21, 2024
115
Miserable, 'cause I'm physically ill on top of mental illness.
 

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