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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Fuck it all
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
I hate myself
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
1,158
Having no self-control...
 
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JKFleck

JKFleck

Betrayed by my only friend, nothing left to lose
Oct 1, 2023
211
Retarded
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
I need a new speaker. Mine is too loud when you switch it on and having got over the minor cardiac arrest each time because of course I always forget, now it turns out that it gets louder when you put it on to charge. Obviously designed by some antisocial fun loving party person and not a middle aged grump who doesn't sleep well and likes tea and a gentle start to the day FFS.
 
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ConfusedClouds

Specialist
Mar 9, 2024
346
Annoyingly awake when I wanted/needed an early night and now I've drunk too so I'll mentally regret that tomorrow. The early gym session HAS to go ahead though so at least I'll feel punished and physical regret too. If only I would ever learn
 
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Ferdinand Bardamu

Ferdinand Bardamu

No Future For Democracy
Feb 22, 2024
295
Below average
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
1,158
Restless, weird- I have no attention span... I have to either move, or listen some music (dance maybe...)... Oh, I can't just relax...
 
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Zillai

Zillai

I exist(for now)
Jul 17, 2023
40
Tired and scared
 
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Ln42

Ihm/iai
Jun 13, 2018
125
Defeated, upset, isolated, irritated, let down, dismissed, heightened, done!
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Tired, headache, slightly suspicious about what my IBS is up to (IYKYK), can't believe it's still only Wednesday, trying to come up with positive and constructive plans for what to do this weekend if it's warm and sunny as currently forecast. And just rubbed moisturiser in my eye, which is a perfect way to end the day.
 
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ImTelling

ImTelling

Sad Doggo
May 27, 2024
177
Got fired, no longer friends with one of my best friends. I'm trying my best to make the situation unfixable. I feel this deep connection with Ricardo Lopez, like I was him in a previous life. I don't want to get into detail because this is not what this forum section is for.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,238
Dreading my next day at work on Saturday and Sunday (10 hour days minimum unless I'm lucky, but can be 12 or more depending on the people). I got really sunburnt last time, so I'm gonna try my best to avoid that this time and I just hate the job overall.
 
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Sober4MostDays

Sober4MostDays

My username is a lie currently
May 29, 2024
24
Confused and lost I'd say.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,209
Throat still hurts for some reason. I'd take a covid test but all of my tests are expired. 😒

On the other hand it's making me think of my situation a little less so I guess that's a net positive.
 
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Heartaches

Heartaches

Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours
May 6, 2021
261
Empty and tired. I haven't been able to sleep well over the past couple of days. There isn't much in my life that makes me happy nowadays.​
 
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JaJu

JaJu

Member
Apr 3, 2024
98
Wishing I could find a job that I actually look forward to doing... 😔 I officially hate working with customers and would prefer to do something behind the scenes instead, but I feel stuck—can't find a better job opportunity.
 
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LoiteringClouds

LoiteringClouds

Tempus fugit
Feb 7, 2023
3,788
My friend suggested to try to run 6 miles (10 kms) non-stop on a treadmill. "Go slowly and you can do it" - That's crazy but I'll try anyway.
 
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Changedmymind

Member
May 21, 2024
32
Brain is foggy. No appetite and trouble sleeping because of the heat. Sweating my ass off. In times like these got to remind myself that things could be worse, a LOT worse.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
👉
(For those who can't see it, it's the invisible 💩 emoji)
 
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lovedread

lovedread

hell is other people
Jan 2, 2020
213
Like shit
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,238
Sad, my therapist had to reschedule and I was really looking forward to todays session before I have to go into work this weekend. I suppose I could've done it over the phone but I have a weird anxiety with phone calls. Like even calling to order my phone makes my heart feel like it's going to explode, no clue why though.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
In a different thread I said I was always second guessing myself and other people. Have decided it's easier to just not trust anyone. Finally understand why people take this position. The constant rollercoaster is exhausting and overwhelming and I hate myself for wanting to keep riding it even though I know what's coming.
 
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IwantHappiness

Member
May 31, 2024
62
I feel very lonely and very sad. I'm a good Soul and I do not deserve this agony. I wish someone would solve all my problems and help me. Why doesn't the universe care about me and help me?
 
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Heartaches

Heartaches

Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours
May 6, 2021
261
I can't feel my head. I don't wanna do anything.​
 
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leadedSnail

leadedSnail

New Member
May 29, 2024
4
Felt incredibly guilty and resigned to the fact that I could never recover 20 minutes ago… then one of my roommates cats sat in my lap and began purring. Now I feel full of hope.
 
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J

J&L383

Wizard
Jul 18, 2023
650
Like every morning. Anxious, depressed. Thinking about stuff and worrying about small things. I wish I knew when this depression was over. It's been 8-9 months now.
Similar. Except 8-9 months passed long ago. ☹️
I wish I could go into a forest and scream so much that death alone can console me. I wish I could jump off Beachy Head that by the time I hit the waters, the waters will offer my dead body solace and cradle me like a mother would cradle a new born with pure love and affection. I wish I could sit on top of the mountain looking out to the sea and die of an overdose - with just peace, quiet and Mother Nature taking me away from everything.
🤗♥️
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Got up much earlier than planned as it's too warm to stay in bed. Feeling a bit a lot lost.
 
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