how do you feel right now? don’t even think about it, just type.

[moonmuse]

i feel hungry tired sleepy lonely bored annoyed grumpy and sad

 

[NutOrat]

I feel afraid of tomorrow coming, and the day after tomorrow, and all the days following. I'm afraid of having to wake up again, having to eat and wash dishes again, having to take the shower and shiver from cold, having to shave and cut myself, having to go to the gym against my will, otherwise I'll be degraded again. I feel like if I have to do it one more day I'll snap.

 

[selfishmachine]

terrible

 

[LittleSunshine]

I just looked outside and suddenly saw a crow sitting on my fence which immediately flew away. I rarely see them in my garden and it gave me an uneasy feeling. In general I associate them with wisdom, duality and transformation but also with death, gatekeepers etc. But lately every sign feels like an omen which directs me more and more into the inevitable of ending my own life. That feeling that the whole universe turned against you by only creating one destructive event after another, consuming all the life force out of you.

The rational part of my brain tells me of course, that I like to see, connect and give meaning to things that aren't even there and that everything is coincidence anyway. It's a mix of pure bad luck and the consequences of choices I made.

This mindfuckery is a complete joke.

 

[wilderwein]

I'm feeling regretful, hopeless, offended, that everything is going only worse, a lot of endless thoughts, guesses that are killing me slowly from inside. I feel that I am at the limit

 

[aphrodite]

Tired, lonely, hopeless

 

[GrievingPhantom]

i feel empty and numb. i feel lost. i don't think i'm doing anything correctly, but i'm so drained at this point i don't really fucking care.

Angry. Unloved. Undervalued. Underappreciated.

 

[DeathCruiser10]

Feel depressed, deprived, and distraught.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I stole a shitton of this medication called Myslee. Any idea(s) on how much I should take to CTB?/srs

 

[aleaiactaest]

Inhuman. Ugly. A hideous thing. More than anything, tired.

 

[torturedmind]

I feel like my depression is winning and every day is wasted just like the last. I feel scared about my future and guilty for not trying harder to get better.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Feel mostly relaxed. I liked coding an entry-message feature for a chat... and I admit I am posting here ASAP because I do not want to have a post count with a hateful number. irl now wants me to sleep tho, gn.

I didn't like when my window warmed vs cooled the room... usually it can cool until 7am or so... but in the afternoon it cooled quite well.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Tired and trapped. I really want to escape/exit out of this life.

 

[Macedonian1987]

My chronic pain is acting up today. I hate... not my life. My awful circumstances.

 

[lunar02102009]

i feel empty and numb. i feel lost. i don't think i'm doing anything correctly, but i'm so drained at this point i don't really fucking care.

Dead decaying and i feel like crying into her lap until i become blind even though she no longer wants me

 

[itsgone2]

So tired of the same thoughts. Bed rotting. Anxiety. Feel closer to doing it now. SI still winning but may be wearing down.

 

[Liebestod]

Tired

 

[Pale_Rider]

Numb, and disgusted.

 

[Re62]

Like shit, numb, anxious and overall just disappointed at myself

 

[Kitsuné_]

Completely overwhelmed by the pain and the feeling of explosion in the stomach caused by an hernia

 

[RunDown]

I feel like total buns

 

[woodlandcreature]

So so tired. Sad. Alone. Everything hurts physically and mentally.

 

[ConstantPain]

Glad that football can still partially distract me.
Glad my husband is outside laughing with other people. Hoping they don't come inside. Zero energy to talk, cook, shower, and complete inability to laugh. I refuse to be an actress in my own home.

 

[58Alice85]

MEGALOMANIA
LIFE AS A SINGLE INTELLECTUAL MOVEMENT
PERFECT DESIGN BY THE DIVINE LOGOS
99 PERCENT OF HUMANITY CHOSE GUT-WRENCHING SOUL-CRUSHING TORMENT
TORMENT THEY SEEK TORMENT THEY WILL GET
CAN I SATISFY MY LOVER, GOD AND MYSELF AT THE SAME TIME?
I MUST BE PERFECT AND HARD HITTING
THERE MUST BE A WAY TO GIVE GOD AN ORGASM
HIS DESIGN ALLOWS THIS!
IF EVERYONE GETS PRECISELY WHAT THEY WANT THEN I CHOOSE THIS!

 

[Azertous]

I feel sad, abandoned, betrayed, alone. I have the impression that my body is going to explode I am annoyed at the same time so sad

 

[Gravand]

I don't even think I'm mentally ill, I just have no way into a life I want to live. I'm stuck in a life I hate and I feel like I don't belong in this society or any other society on this earth

 

[58Alice85]

I don't even think I'm mentally ill, I just have no way into a life I want to live. I'm stuck in a life I hate and I feel like I don't belong in this society or any other society on this earth

I sometimes wonder how I would have done if I was born in Japan (I am white European), they are so restrained, polite, clean, obedient and tenacious. It doesn't matter now. I will die soon.

 

[nyotei_]

 

[whybother2002]

I sometimes wonder how I would have done if I was born in Japan (I am white European), they are so restrained, polite, clean, obedient and tenacious. It doesn't matter now. I will die soon.

I think this is a common misconception. Have you seen those Hanatarash concert videos where people that look like common office workers are pissing on stage?

As for how I'm feeling: I just want to die.

 

[Kta1994]

So much pain, need to work, but can't and I want to ctb more than ever